我们的生活

This Is Us S04E11

Part 5 Feb. 12, 2020, 11:15 a.m.

每片枫叶从镜头前飘落我都会知道
every time a maple leaf falls by the camera.
好吧我要送女儿们去学校了
All right, well, I'm gonna drop the girls off at school,
送去之后我马上回来
and then I'm coming right back.
你今天的日程还空着吧
Your schedule's still cleared, yeah?
我们要谈谈的对吧
We're gonna have this talk?
我很愿意谈
I'm still on board for the talk.
我们要准备一张红桌子吗
Should we get a red table?
邀请杰达和加米主持
Invite Jada and Gammy?
指《红桌访谈》节目
-好吧这梗很可爱 -跑完步见
- Yeah. It's cute. - I'll see you after my run.
快去别磨蹭了
Don't dawdle.
妹子我可不怕你
Girl, I ain't scared of you.
你好达内尔
Hey, Darnell.
真...是个惊喜什么事
What a... what a surprise, man. What's up?
我今天休息
Yeah, I had a-a day off.
就想过来看看
Thought I'd stop by.
是这样那天在办公室里发生的事...
Listen, about what happened in the office...
我绝不是故意冒犯...
I-I never meant to offend...
我不是来说那个的
I'm not here to talk about that.
马利克告诉我非法闯入的事了
Malik told me about the break-in.
我还在想你在市政厅为什么这么安静
Yeah, I was wondering why you were so quiet at the town hall.
还以为你会直接火力全开
Thought you was gonna light me up.
我本打算这么做的
I was planning to.
准备了一堆问题
Had a whole list of questions.
凯利也加了一些狠话你知道她很凶的
Kelly added some heavy hitters, too. You know she don't play.
是的
Yeah.
我不知道怎么说伙计
I don't know, man.
如果有人闯进我家
Some dude breaks into my house
闯进我妻子和孩子们睡觉的地方
where my wife and kids are sleeping,
我也会失控的我会一团糟
I would've lost it. I'd be a mess.
是啊
Yeah.
我会跑
I run.
-躲开歹徒吗不丢脸 -不是
-From the dude? No shame. -No.
我是说我会去长跑
I mean, I go for long runs.
让血液流动心脏跳动
You know, get the blood flowing, heart pumping,
肾上腺素激增
adrenaline rushing.
这就是我怎么...
That's always been how I, uh...
怎么克服恐惧
how I get over it, you know?
恢复镇静的
Regain my composure.
你...
You, um...
无论昨晚在市政厅
you didn't seem too composed
还是前几天在你办公室你似乎都不太镇静
last night at the town hall or in your office the other day.
除了跑步你还会做其他的事情吗
Do you do anything else besides running?
-我还在考虑动感单车 -不
- I was thinking of a Peloton. - No, no, no.
不我的意思是
No, I mean, like, uh...
你会找心理医生吗
do you go to therapy?
我曾从中受益很多
It's made a big difference with me.
我不看你看心理医生吗
I don't. You go to therapy?
你现在明显有些焦躁不安
Look, clearly you're an agitated cat.
我以前也是
I used to be, too. You know,
而且有些事你很难对妻子开口
and there's certain things you can't talk to your girl about.
我和贝丝无话不谈
Oh, I can talk to Beth about anything.
能让我说完吗
Can I finish?
好
Yeah.
大概十年前
About ten years back,
这里举办过一场复活节仪式
there was this Easter service.
马利克下车时摔了一跤裤子都划破了
Malik fell getting out the car, split his pants open,
凯莉只好提前带他回家但我没回
so Kelly had to take him back home early, but I stayed.
我看到地上有堆赞美诗集
I noticed a bunch of hymn books on the floor.
就帮詹姆斯牧师把它们拾起来了
So I helped Pastor James pick 'em up.
然后我只记得我把心声全向他吐露了
Next thing I know, I spilled my guts to him.
我谈到了凯莉工作收入什么都谈
About Kelly, work, money, everything.
从那以后每周日一点教堂一开放
And from then on, every Sunday after church let out at 1:00,
我就在那帮詹姆斯牧师收拾赞美诗集
there I was helping Pastor James pick up hymn books,
想跟他说说话
looking for a talk.
后来他听烦了我的破事
Eventually he got sick of my ass
烦我总找他做免费咨♥询♥
getting free counseling sessions.
有一天他递给我个卡纸信封
One day, he hands me this manila envelope.
我觉得他是想赶紧甩了我
I think he's handing me divorce papers.
可是信封里装了张弗里曼医生的名片
But, um, Dr. Freeman's business card was inside.
你不是准备给我递个信封吧
You're not about to hand me an envelope, are you?
不是
No.
你肯定能找个不按浮动费率收钱的医生
I'm sure you can find someone who doesn't use a sliding scale.
真有意思
That's funny.
兄弟我明白
Look, bro, I get it.
我们男人心里装着事
Us men of a certain shade,
不习惯交谈
we're not used to talking.
但心理治疗就是这样对吧
But that's therapy, right?
靠说话
Talking.
没必要总是聊得多深入
It doesn't always have to be that deep.
聊聊日常琐事都可以
You can just talk about everyday stuff.
我很感谢你的建议达内尔
I, uh, I appreciate the offer, Darnell.
不过我很清楚我的问题是什么
But, uh, I'm well aware of what my issues are.
好吗
All right?
跑步就很适合我
Running suits me just fine.
说到跑步...
Speaking of which, uh...
谢谢你和我聊天
Thanks for the chat.
不客气
Don't mention it.
好的
All right.
你不用难为情
You don't have to be embarrassed.
-我没有 -好那跟我说说你做的梦
- I'm not. - Okay, then tell me about your dreams.
这些梦做了多久了
How long have they been happening?
自从我爸去世就一直断断续续
O-Off and on since my... since my dad died.
上次的火灾警报好像让噩梦更频繁了
I guess the fire alarm made things worse.
这和看电影什么的还不一样
It's not like watching a movie or anything.
很多细节我记不清
I can't remember all the details.
只是感觉很无助
I just feel so helpless.
就好像什么事都不受我掌控
Like I have no control over anything.
真傻
It's stupid.
不兰德尔
No, Randall.
这样一点都不傻
That's not even close to stupid.
我爸去世后我也总做噩梦
I had the worst dreams after my dad died.
梦里总会出现窒息
They always involved choking.
缺氧
Lack of oxygen.
-因为你父亲是肺癌去世的 -没错
- Lung cancer? - Right.
现在很容易想明白
It seems so obvious now,
但我那时候想不明白
but it didn't to me at the time.
直到我开始找人倾诉
Not until I talked to someone.
于是我学会告诉自己那些只是梦
I learned to tell myself that they're just dreams.
这让我慢慢学会掌控自己
It gave me control.
而现在
And now...
关于我爸爸的梦都是好梦
the dreams about my dad are good.
都是快乐的梦
They're happy.
这些梦让我感觉
They make me feel like I'm creating
我在创造关于他的新记忆
new memories of him.
你也可以做到的
You can do that, too.
找个人聊聊就好
Just talk to someone.
比如说心理咨♥询♥师或...
Like a counselor or...
我不确定这样适不适合我
I-I don't know if that's my thing.
那参加丧亲支持会怎么样
Well, then, how about grief group?
每周末都举办一次
They have one on the weekends.
我刚来学校时还去过几次
I-I went a couple times when I first got to school.
明天你妈妈的晚餐开始前
Now, I could go with you tomorrow
我可以陪你去参加
before your mom's dinner.
这样比独自受折磨要好
It's better than torturing yourself.
相信我
Trust me.
住手
Stop!
住手
Stop!
求你住手住手
Please! Stop! Stop!
你给我滚开
Get the hell off me, man!
爸爸