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Here and Now S01E05

Part 2 June 6, 2020, 1:52 p.m.

我看看
Let's see.
好了宝贝
All right. There you go, baby.
你现在该没事了
Okay? You should be fine now.
要我陪你上去吗
You want me to come up with you?
不用了
No, that's okay.
听着
Listen.
我知道你现在对
I know you're feeling uncertain right now
将要发生的事都感到不确定
about everything that's going to happen,
但就现在而言你没事
but for the time being, you're okay.
你得活在当下
You need to live in that.
不要担心未来
Don't worry about the future.
活在此时此刻
Just live in the here... and the now.
我知道爸我看了你的书
I know, Dad. I read your book.
对不起
I'm sorry.
不要道歉不要道歉
No apologies. No apologies.
我要和你姐姐吃午餐你来吗
I'm having lunch with your sister. Do you wanna join us?
不了
No.
我只想上楼去睡一觉
I think I just wanna go upstairs and crash,
开♥发♥我的游戏什么的
work on my game or something.
我们会想出办法的
We're gonna figure this out.
我们会治好这病的
We're gonna fix this.
我保证
I promise. Hmm?
早啊
Hey. Morning.
要吃酸奶吗
Go-Gurt?
你♥他♥妈♥开玩笑吗
Are you fucking kidding me?
你跟我说说我做错了什么
So, why don't you go ahead and tell me what I did wrong,
因为我20分钟后要去上班
'cause I gotta be at work in 20 minutes,
我不知道问题是什么
and I don't see what the problem is.
你消失了两天亨利
You disappeared for two days, Henry,
半夜消失的好吗
in the middle of the night, all right?
没留字条也没打电♥话♥
No note, no phone call.
我忘带手♥机♥了
I forgot my phone, man.
你骗我
You're lying to me.
没有
No, man.
我不知道你想要联♥系♥我
I didn't know you were trying to get ahold of me.
又发生了好吗
It happened again, okay?
在我侄女的生日派对上我出现错觉
At my niece's birthday party, I had some kind of freak-out,
-我看到了什么 -该死
- and I fucking saw something. - Shit.
我当时很需要你你却不在
I fucking needed you there, and you weren't there,
所以去你♥妈♥的♥
so fuck you, man, all right?
溜进我家吃我的酸奶
Just strolling into my house, eating my Go-Gurt,
睡我的床好像什么都没发生一样
and using my bed like it's fucking nothing, man!
你的行为太你妈操蛋了
All right? What you did, it's just-- it's fucking bullshit.
我做了什么
What did I do, man?
你半夜离开
You fucking left in the middle of the night.
听着我天好吧
Look, I'm s-- Oh God. All right.
我不习惯告诉别人我要去哪
I'm not used to telling people where I'm going,
因为从没有人关心过我去哪
'cause no one's ever fucking cared where I go,
所以我很抱歉我不是
so I'm sorry I'm not a fucking expert
处理这种破事的专家
at dealing with this fucking shit.
我不是你的心理医生我从没说过我会是
I'm not your shrink. I never said I would be.
我朋友毒瘾发作他那晚给我发短♥信♥
My friend, he relapsed, okay? He texted me the other night,
因为他要伤到他自己我必须过去
because he was gonna fucking hurt himself, and I had to go.
这就是真♥相♥
And that's the fucking truth.
好吧我知道了
Okay. No, I, um, I get it.
我只是希望你能打个电♥话♥
I just wish you would've called.
靠我知道
Shit. I know.
我知道
I know.
你朋友没手♥机♥吗
Your friend didn't have a phone?
我记不住你的号♥码
I don't have your number memorized.
为什么
Why?
因为现在没人记得住任何人的号♥码
Because nobody knows anybody's number anymore.
-才不是 -我号♥码是多少
- That's not true. I-- - What's mine?
看吧
See?
我不知道你为什么不买♥♥台新笔记本
Yeah, I don't know why you just don't spring for a new laptop.
宕机10次我就会扔了
I would've tossed it after the first 10 times it crashed.
我知道我知道
I know, I know.
今天下午我要和史蒂文·本杰明见面
I'm meeting Steven Benjamin this afternoon.
那破玩意偏要在这个时候死机
The damn thing couldn't have picked a worse time to freeze again.
史蒂文·本杰明
Steven Benjamin? Wow.
如果你拿到工作了
If you get the job,
跟他说你需要一台24克拉黄金Macbook Pro
tell him you'll need a Macbook Pro 24.
只要3万
It's only-- what, 30,000.
嗯我第一件事就是索要昂贵礼物
Yes, the first thing I'll do is demand expensive gifts.
要是你♥爸♥的笔记本电池再没电我发誓
If the battery is dead again on your father's laptop, I swear--
亲爱的听着
Sweetie, listen,
我得推迟我们的跑步/散步半个小时
I'm gonna have to push our run/walk back half an hour.
我想搜一些我们能去看的家庭心理咨♥询♥师
I wanna google some family therapists we can go to.
我从小身边就有人有精神病
I grew up around mental disorder.
我不会等到你弟弟伤到自己
I'm not gonna wait till your brother seriously hurts himself
才引起医生的注意
for a doctor to finally give a damn.
妈妈
Mom. Mom.
深呼吸你疯了
Breathe. You're making yourself crazy.
佳子热辣激♥情♥ 最近搜索
我们12:30见
I'll meet you at 12:30.
你知道不断重新安排见面时间
You know, constantly rescheduling meetings
是攻击的一种形式
is a form of aggression.
很好亲爱的到时见
That's great, sweetie. I'll see you then.
标题
谢谢
太棒了
感觉活过来了
今晚新时间
紧急约见
我想要一个我们共度良宵的纪念品
你感觉很棒很粗
可能是我口过的最棒的鸡♥巴♥
我还能感觉到你的嘴唇
我什么时候能再吻你
不客气我的性感西蒙
谢谢你的阴♥茎♥挂套
今年收到的最棒的生日礼物
性感西蒙
不客气我的性感西蒙
谢谢你的阴♥茎♥挂套
今年收到的最棒的生日礼物
性感西蒙
突然叫你♥爸♥出来吃午饭感觉自己好幸运
Call your old man out of the blue to have lunch. I feel so lucky.
抱歉我迟到了我...
I'm sorry I'm late. I, uh...
我刚才去街角买♥♥东西了
I just needed to go around the corner and pick up a few things.
你给我买♥♥了什么
What'd you get me?
你买♥♥了足够的乳液吗
Think you got enough lotion there?
是的每个包一个
Yes, one for every purse.
再也不会被发现两手空空了
I'm never gonna be caught empty-handed again.
今早没有乳液给海莉擦
Didn't have lotion for Hailey this morning,
另一个妈妈把她的借我
and one of the other moms let me borrow hers,
让我感到我也不知道很羞愧
and, uh, and it just made me-- I don't know-- feel so ashamed.
-我为什么会这样觉得 -你妈妈是心理咨♥询♥师
- Why did I feel like that? - Your mother's the therapist.
我只能把羞愧的概念
I can only dissect the concept of shame
剖析成上千个子概念
into a thousand subconcepts,
直到我们也不知道我们在谈什么
until we don't even know what we're talking about anymore.
嗯谢谢不用了
Yes. Thank you, but I will pass.
雷蒙怎么样
How is Ramon?
开始服药了
He started medication.
这是好事对吧
Hmm. Okay. That's a good thing, right?
希望如此你怎么样
I hope so. How are you?
生活怎么样
How's life?
挺好的挺好的我...
It's good. It's good. I, uh, I...
我想要的都有了我很幸运
I have everything I ever wanted. I'm super lucky.
好吧你这是什么表情
Okay. What's wrong with this picture?
怎么了
What's going on?
有时我觉得我要承担一切责任
Sometimes I just feel so fucking responsible for everything.
我爱我丈夫
I love my husband.
我爱我女儿我爱我的工作我的家人
I love my daughter. I love my job, my family,
我的生活但我...
my whole life, but I just--
感觉有东西...
it feels like there's something...
缺失了
Missing?
我现在什么都不懂了
And I don't know what anything means anymore.
靠我懂这感受
Fuck. I know that feeling.
有时感觉
Sometimes it feels like...