永不满足

Insatiable S01E05

Part 8 Oct. 12, 2019, 11:14 a.m.

It was a bikini dog wash
可我还是没勇气穿上
and I still couldn't bring myself to put on that bikini.
你也是LGBTQ吗
Are you with the LGBTQ Center?
怎么看出来的
What gave it away?
你...
When...?
你什么时候知道自己...
When did you know you were someone who...
是LGBTQ
goes to the LGBTQ Center?
我觉得我一直知道但我一直说服自己
I think I always knew, but I kept trying to convince myself
这只是一个普通小姑娘的叛逆
that it was just, like, regular 15-year-old girl stuff, you know.
直到我知道《梦幻天堂》是拉拉片
Like, before I realized Heavenly Creatures is a gay movie.
-是吗 -当然了
- It is? - Yeah, dude.
梅兰妮·林斯基爱上了凯特·温斯莱特
Melanie Lynskey is in love with Kate Winslet.
我也爱上了我最好的闺蜜
And I was obsessed with my best friend.
她找到初恋男友的时候我特别吃醋
Totally jealous when she got her first boyfriend,
可我不觉得这样就是拉拉
but I didn't think that made me gay.
可当我看到她和男生亲热我想死的时候
And then I saw her making out with a guy and I wanted to die.
我才意识到了
That's when I knew.
我也会这样
I do that too.
死死地盯着镜子里自己的身体
I get stuck in the mirror, looking at my body,
希望变成别的样子
wishing it were different.
你的身材很棒
You have an amazing body.
你也是
So do you.
我...以前是个胖子
I... I used to be fat.
我以前是个男人
I used to be a guy.
我靠
Shit, really?
也不算我内心一直是女生
Well, no. I mean, I've always been a girl,
只是陷在男人的身体里
I just had the body of a guy.
我是变性人
I'm trans.
要是说谁能懂自己这身皮囊有多别扭
If anyone understands feeling uncomfortable in their own skin,
就是我
it's me.
我原以为做完手术我就能自在了
I thought once I had my surgery, I'd feel better about myself.
可我还是不习惯穿这泳衣
I'm still not comfortable wearing a bathing suit.
我觉得总有一天我能坚信自己是女性
I keep thinking there's gonna be a day where I feel female enough.
我觉得我再减十斤就可以了
I think I'll feel thin enough when I lose another ten pounds.
我只是想让自己也能漂亮
I just... keep wishing I looked perfect.
有时候我会在想我到底要不要
Sometimes I wonder if I'm gonna spend the rest of my life
下半辈子变成新模样
waiting for it to start.
我也是
Me too.
也许也不必
Maybe we don't have to.
我感觉
I feel so...
自在
Free.
我是想说难为情的
No, I was gonna say totally self-conscious.
-谢天谢地我也是 -好
- Thank God, me too. - Okay.
-慢慢来吧 -慢慢来
- Baby steps. - Baby steps.
帕蒂
Patty.
我一会再来找你
Uh, hey, I'll catch up with you.
这活动很棒我为你感到骄傲
This is amazing. I'm proud of you.
所以你原谅我了吗
Does that mean you forgive me?
我只是懂了
It means I understand, yes.
没人是完美的
Nobody's perfect.
你我科拉莉都不完美
Not you, not me, not Coralee.
说真的你真把我搅的一团糟
Believe me, you did a really messed up thing,
可同时你也一直想要弥补
but also, you're trying to make things right.
你没做亏心事
Your heart's in the right place.
我也知道你绝不会故意伤害别人
And I know you'd never hurt anyone on purpose.
流浪汉还有科拉莉
Well, the homeless guy. And Coralee.
别逼我改主意
Don't make me change my mind.
瑞吉娜·辛克莱黑了你的手♥机♥ 我有证据
Regina Sinclair hacked your phone, I got proof.
我告知了魔力耶稣小姐组委会你归赛了
I alerted the Miss Magic Jesus Board. So you're back in.
天啊太谢谢你了
Oh, my God. Thank you.
爸
Dad!
我刚跟妈通电♥话♥
I just talked to Mom and
她说你愿意不惜一切代价
she said whatever you were doing to fix things,
弥补过错干得好
you screwed up, so, good job.
要不是你妈搞了那个...
Yeah, maybe tell your mother, if she hadn't gone running to...
当我没说
You know what? Never mind.
我和你妈还有好多事要解决
Your mother and I have a lot to work through.
最好还是别把你牵扯进来
It's best you don't get involved.
没必要把你弄得进退两难
There's no reason to put you in the middle.
鲍勃我再次向你道歉
Bob, again, I'm truly sorry.
赢下魔力耶稣小姐美国小姐
Just win Miss Magic Jesus, Miss American Lady
这样这段闹剧也算有个好的收尾
and then maybe we can both make all this worth the trouble.
布瑞克
Hey, Brick.
你还好吗
You okay?
也就那样吧
I mean, no, but yeah.
谢谢你今天救了场
You saved my ass today. Thank you.
也谢谢你让我能多和我爸聊天
Thank you... for caring about me enough to talk with my dad.
不如你可以请我喝杯咖啡
So, maybe you could, like, take me out to coffee?
然后道个谢
Say thank you for earlier, you know.
约会
Like a date.
我懂了我现在瘦了你就有兴趣了
I get it. I'm thinner now, so you're suddenly interested.
不是
No!
你一直都很好我很喜欢和你聊天
I mean, you... you look great, but I really like talking to you.
我这几天和你说过的话
I've said more to you in the last few days
比和玛格诺莉娅一年说的还多
than I've said to Magnolia in a year.
这很奇怪因为通常
Which is weird for me, because usually,
我就算喜欢和别人聊天
when I like talking to someone,
我也不会想做这个
I don't also want to do this.
我也想这么做
Yeah, I definitely want to do that too.