如果还有明天（2010）

The Big C S04E04

Part 7 Aug. 17, 2021, 10:05 p.m.

在那里信徒们可以见到上帝
where believers enjoy the presence of God
摆脱受难和原罪
and the freedom from suffering and sin.
听起来不错啊
That sounds nice.
好了拉比你怎么看
All right, rabbi, what you got?
摩西五经并不讨论来世的问题
Well, the torah does not discuss an afterlife.
我们只专注于今世即这个世界
We focus on olam ha ze... this world...
现时和现在
the here and now.
但我的"现时和现在"马上就要结束了
Well, my "here and now" is about to get up and go.
能讲点别的让我兴奋一下吗
So, can you give me something to get excited about?
有一本著名的犹太口传律法
Well, there is a famous midrash
描述了一群灵魂在来世
that describes souls in the afterlife
围坐在一张大餐桌前
at a huge banquet table,
享受美味的食物
sharing delicious food.
- 这还差不多 - 我喜欢犹太食物
- That's better. - I like Jewish food.
我也是
Oh, same here.
我们的天堂很美好
Our paradise, Jannah, is pretty nice.
你可以穿精美的衣服
You get to wear fancy robes,
还能靠在沙发上
and you can recline on couches.
我可能会做穆♥斯♥林♥教♥徒♥
I might be Muslim.
但生病和濒死的人必须等待离开的时机
But the sick and the dying have to wait their turn to go.
太捉弄人了
It's a big tease.
死亡的真义
The essence of faith
就是服从神的意愿
is surrendering to God's will.
和他的安排
And his timing.
我感到很安心
I take great comfort
因为知道自己的生与死
in knowing that my life and death
和众人一样平等
is no more important than others.
但如果我必须呆在这
But if I have to stay here
等待上帝决定什么时候带我走的话
and wait for God to decide when he's ready to let me go,
为什么一定要这么痛苦呢
why does it have to be so painful?
你的疾病不仅是为了考验你
Your illness is not just to test you,
也是为了考验他人的善心
but to test the charity of others.
你已经看到周围的人
Have you seen generosity and kindness
对你有多慷慨友善了吧
in the people around you?
我们相信
Well, we believe that beauty
这些美丽和善良所在即是真♥主♥阿♥拉♥
and the knowledge of that goodness is Allah.
我们则相信是上帝
We believe it's God.
我们并不确定
We're not sure.
主耶稣基♥督♥啊世上最仁慈的主
Oh, lord Jesus Christ, most merciful lord of earth,
请您张开怀抱接纳这个子民
we ask that you receive this child into your arms,
好让她平安度过这场劫难
that she may pass in safety from this crisis.
您曾怀着无限慈悲告诉我们
As thou hast told us with infinite compassion,
你们心里不要忧愁
let not your heart be troubled.
你们信神也当信我
Ye believe in God, believe also in me.
你还好吗亚当
How you doing, Adam?
我很累
I'm tired.
你看着就很累
You look tired.
我的朋友们都在庆祝
All my friends are partying
因为他们就要离开学校了
because they're almost out of school,
而我还要来考试
and I'm still taking tests.
你自找的
Well, you dug your own hole.
接受吧
Now jump in.
我准备好了
I'm ready.
我不想再这样下去了更重要的是
I don't want it to get any more painful...
比起自己
not for me,
不要让我的家人再痛苦下去了
but more importantly for my family.
我很抱歉
I apologize
如果在我之前的人生中信仰不够虔诚
if I didn't have enough faith in my life
或者不够正确的话
or the right kind of faith.
但现在
But right now...
我相信你
I believe in you.
我相信你能帮助我
I believe you can help me.
现在我要睡觉了
Now I lay me down to sleep.
我向主祈求收归我的灵魂
I pray the lord my soul to keep.
如果我能在睡梦中死去
If I should die before I wake...
就最好不过了
that'd be good.
该死
God damn it.
所以你不单认为在你死之前
Not only did you think that you could get everyone
你可以掌控所有人所有事
and everything under control before you died,
你还认为你可以控制自己
but you actually thought that you could control
什么时候死去吗
when you died?
不是光我自己
Well, not just me.
我觉得我可以祈求神来帮助我
I thought I could invoke a little divine help.
好吧但一般有信仰不是意味着
Yeah, but isn't having faith largely defined
放弃控制吗
by surrendering control?
我已经放弃控制了
I have surrendered control.
我需要别人帮我去上厕所
I need someone to help me go to the bathroom.
我完全放弃打扮自己
I've completely given up trying to look cute.
我努力接受
I'm reconciling the fact
我父亲与我永远不会亲密的事实
that my dad and I will never be close.
而且我不能亲眼看到亚当高中毕业
And I won't get to see Adam graduate from high school.
没错但你也害怕
Yeah, but you're also afraid
自己的死会毁掉亚当
that your death might screw up Adam.
这和什么做长远规划
That's not the same as trusting
以便行更大之善可不一样
in a higher plan for a greater good.
我以为心理咨♥询♥是为了让人好受点
I thought therapy was supposed to make you feel better.
不一定哦
Not necessarily.
那你做得很好
Then you're doing great.
是嘛谢谢
Why, thank you.
所以如果我签份东西
So, if I sign something
声明我愿意去见那个
saying I'm willing to meet the person
接受我捐的肾的人
that I'm donating my kidney to
而对方也签份东西声明他们也愿意见我的话
and they sign something saying they're willing to meet me,
就没必要搞成匿名的啊
then it doesn't have to be anonymous.
你猜怎么着
And guess what.
我们都签了
We both signed.
我要见他了他叫瑞恩
I'm meeting him. His name is Ray.
你看起来一点都不紧张
You don't even seem nervous.
不不我已经过了那个阶段了
No, no. I'm over that part now.
你有没有听说过那种故事
Hey, you know how you hear these stories
就是有时候捐赠者和被捐赠者
that sometimes donors and donees
会成为一辈子的好朋友
become lifelong friends?
既然他身体里有了我的一部分
Well, maybe now that he'll have a little piece of me in him,
也许我们会变得像兄弟一样
maybe he'll become like a brother.
- 是吧 - 肖恩
- You know? - Sean...
我知道我曾经说你无所作为
Now, I know that I've judged you for not being typical,
但你做了很厉害的事
but you do amazing things.
你帮助别人
You help people, which is why
所以我现在才请你来帮我
you're the person I'm asking to help me now.
帮什么
With what?
我准备走了
I'm ready to go.
去哪
Uh, where?
踏上极乐世界之路
On my adventure to the great beyond.
如果我在周五之前不能正常死在这里的话
And if I don't die naturally in here by Friday,
我就会在家里死去在亚当面前
I have to die in the house in front of Adam,
可我不想那样
and I don't want to do that.
但更重要的是
And most importantly,
我想和你一起完成这最后的胜利
I want to do this last hurrah with you.
因为我信任你不作评价的可贵品质
But I'm relying on your amazing ability not to judge.
而且我爱你
And I love you,
所以
which is why...
我的遗愿就是
my dying wish is that...
让你帮我死
you help me die.
你你这个该死的疯女人
Y... you are a fucking crazy lady!
嘿嘿疯女人
Hey. Hey, crazy lady,
你把我姐姐怎么了
what did you just do with my sister?
你吃了她吗
Did you eat her?
如果我现在往你的嘴里看
If I looked in your mouth right now,
凯西会不会在里面大声叫
would Cathy be down there screaming,
"嘿这个疯女人刚把我活吞了
"hey, this crazy bitch just gobbled me up,