如果还有明天（2010）

The Big C S04E07

Part 2 Sept. 4, 2022, 8:30 p.m.

我哪也不想去
I don't want to go anywhere.
我们是买♥♥了史上最烂保险吗
Do we just have the worst insurance ever?
实际上这是常规保险内容
Actually, this is very standard,
并且你的保险涵盖了临终家庭护理
and your insurance does cover home hospice care,
从你回家开始即刻生效
which would start as soon as you get home.
我们会派出一位临终护理员
And that would include a hospice nurse
每天去你家照顾你几小时
coming in to check on you several hours a day.
那如果我们想留在这里呢
Okay, what if we wanted to stay here?
我们需要自付多少钱呢
How much would it cost to pay out of pocket?
非常遗憾的是
Well, unfortunately,
我们是保险制的安养院
We are an insurance-based hospice,
我们只能依照你的保险计划来提供护理
so we can only provide care through your plan.
你们不接受现金吗 -是的
You don't take cash? - Mm-mm.
有谁会不接受现金的
Who doesn't take cash?
我是说我们知道你这有空房♥
I mean, look, we - we know you have room here.
那张床空了几个月了
I mean, that bed's been empty for months.
你知道吗没关系凯西
You know what? It's okay, Cath.
这其实很好
It's actually great.
我又能带我的新娘回家了
I get to take my bride home again.
实际上我还以为你会很兴奋能回家呢
Actually, I thought you might be excited about going home.
我很兴奋
I'm excited.
我会给你把一切都安排好的亲爱的
I'll get you all set up, honey.
你可以蜷在你自己的被子里
You can curl up with your own blanket.
这有位女士几个月前求着要回家
We had a woman here a few months ago who begged to go home
就为了坐在家里阳台她最爱的摇椅上
just to sit in her favorite rocker on her sunporch.
她老公说她就是在那里去世的
And her husband said that that is where she passed
脸上还带着笑容
with a smile on her face.
要是我想坐在我家狗屁阳台上
If I wanted to sit on my frickin' sunporch,
我就压根不会来这
I would never have come here.
但是我来了
But I did come here,
因为我不想我们的儿子把我们的家
because I don't want our son to associate our house
和他妈妈的死联♥系♥起来
with the place where his mother died.
"那是她摔倒的房♥间
"Oh, that's the room she fell down in.
那是她最后死掉的房♥间"
that's the room where she finally passed."
我是来这等死的
I came here to die.
你只能住到星期五
Well, you have until Friday.
他说我激励了他
He said that I inspire him.
我一点也不惊讶
I'm not surprised.
你也激励了我
You inspire me.
我开始还以为他是想开♥发♥
I figured at first that he was, like, creating
大码女装系列
some new big-gal line,
但事实上是常规苗条女装
but it's regular skinny clothes.
你在对我抛媚眼吗
Are you winking at me?
不好意思
I'm sorry.
这样我更容易聚焦你继续
It helps me focus. Go on.
这真的很棒
And this is really cool.
我们今天都有好消息
We both get good news on the same day.
我有了份工作而你要回家了
I get a job, and you're going home.
没错
Yep.
你说我"制狮"[自私]是什么意思
What do you mean I'm shellfish?
我喜欢值班的时候跟你们碰面
I like seeing you guys on my rounds.
我的天啊
Oh, my god.
就像那个笑话
It's like a joke.
一个牧师一个拉比和一个穆♥斯♥林♥
A priest, a rabbi, and a muslim dude...
拉比:犹太教士
阿訇:主持清♥真♥寺宗教事务的人员
不那叫阿訇
No, an imam.
一起走进一家酒吧 -一家安养院
All walk into a bar. - A hospice.
安德莉亚你能喊他们过来吗
Andrea, would you ask them to come over here?
你们觉得我们死了会去哪
Where do you think we go when we die?
这是我最常被问到的问题
It's the question I'm most often asked,
仅少于 "仪式有多长啊"
Second only to, "How long is the service?"
我也经常被人这么问
I get that one too.
天主教认为我们会上天堂
Catholic thought is that you go to heaven,
信徒会在那里与上帝同在
where believers enjoy the presence of god,
并从痛苦和罪恶中解脱
and the freedom from suffering and sin.
听起来真好
That sounds nice.
好吧拉比你说说吧
All right, rabbi, what you got?
犹太教律没有讲来世
Well, the torah does not discuss an afterlife.
我们强调今生当下这个世界
We focus on olam ha ze-- this world...
此时此刻
the here and now.
我的"此时此刻"差不多就是起身闪人
Well, my "Here and now" is about to get up and go.
所以你能给我点刺♥激♥的描述吗
So, can you give me something to get excited about?
有一段著名的米德拉什
Well, there is a famous midrash
米德拉什: 针对希伯来圣经额外的圣经注释
描述了去往来世的灵魂
that describes souls in the afterlife
在一张巨大的宴会桌前分享着美食
at a huge banquet table, sharing delicious food.
这样好多了 -我喜欢犹太食品
That's better. - I like jewish food.
我也是
Oh, same here.
我们的天堂叫天园非常美好
Our paradise, Jannah, is pretty nice.
你可以穿着漂亮的袍子
You get to wear fancy robes,
还可以靠在躺椅上
and you can recline on couches.
我说不定是个穆♥斯♥林♥
I might be muslim.
但病人和将死之人不得不等待死期的到来
but the sick and the dying have to wait their turn to go.
这也太揪心了
It's a big tease.
信念的本质
The essence of faith
是围绕着上帝的意愿的
is surrendering to god's will.
还有上帝的时间安排
And his timing.
知道我的生老病死并不比他人的更重要
I take great comfort in knowing that my life and death
令我感到无比欣慰
is no more important than others.
但我必须留在这里
But if I have to stay here
等待上帝决定我的死期
and wait for god to decide when he's ready to let me go,
为什么一定要这么痛苦呢
why does it have to be so painful?
你的疾病并不只是考验你
Your illness is not just to test you,
也在考验他人的付出
but to test the charity of others.
你身边的人有展示出慷慨和善良吗
Have you seen generosity and kindness in the people around you?
我们认为美
Well, we believe that beauty
还有善行的存在就是阿♥拉♥
and the knowledge of that goodness is allah.
我们认为是上帝
We believe it's god.
我们不确定
We're not sure.
耶稣基♥督♥ 世上最仁慈的主啊
Oh, lord jesus christ, most merciful lord of earth,
我们请求您接受这孩子入您的臂膀
we ask that you receive this child into your arms,
让她逃离危险走向安全
that she may pass in safety from this crisis.
如汝曾用无尽怜悯告知我等
As thou hast told us with infinite compassion,
愿汝心莫被困
let not your heart be troubled.
你们信神也当信我
Ye believe in god, believe also in me.
状态怎样亚当
How you doing, Adam?
我很累
I'm tired.
你看着就很累
You look tired.
我的朋友都在玩因为学期快结束了
All my friends are partying because they're almost out of school,
而我还在考试
And I'm still taking tests.
这是你自找的
Well, you dug your own hole.
来开始吧
Now jump in.
我准备好了
I'm ready.
我不想再痛苦下去了
I don't want it to get any more painful...
不是为了自己
Not for me,
更重要的是为了我的家人
but more importantly for my family.
我愿道歉
I apologize
若您觉得我对生命不够虔诚
if I didn't have enough faith in my life
或者说虔诚的方式不对
or the right kind of faith.
但现在
But right now...
我相信你
I believe in you.
我相信你能够帮助我
I believe you can help me.
现在我躺下入睡
Now I lay me down to sleep.
求主守护我的灵魂
I pray the lord my soul to keep.
若我能从此长眠不醒
If I should die before I wake...
那是再好不过
That'd be good.
该死的
God damn it.
你不仅认为你可以把所有人
Not only did you think that you could get everyone
以及所有事都在死前安排好
and everything under control before you died,
你甚至以为你可以控制自己的死期吗
but you actually thought that you could control when you died?
不仅是我自己