婚外情事

The Affair S04E09

Part 2 Dec. 3, 2019, 3:45 p.m.

没关系你也爱我
Doesn't matter. You love me, too.
有关系
Oh, it does matter.
我不原谅你
And I don't forgive you.
我怎么说得出口我爱你
And how can I tell you I love you?
我根本不了解你
I don't even know you.
是
Mmm. Yeah.
你说得对
Right.
等下
Wait.
我有话想对你说
I have something I want to say to you, too.
好吧
Okay.
-你是个混♥蛋♥ -我知道
- You're a shit. - I know.
你玩弄了我
You treated me badly.
我承认
I did.
我对你很坦白
I was honest with you.
我告诉了你我的故事
I told you who I am.
我没有骗你
I didn't lie to you.
你骗了我
You lied to me.
是的
Yeah.
为什么
Why?
我搞砸了
I screwed up.
我很软弱
I'm weak.
本很遗憾你和妻子分开了
Ben, I am sorry you broke up with your wife.
更主要的是我对你的孩子感到遗憾
I am sorry, most of all, for your kids.
很遗憾我和你
And I am sorry that you and I
没有机会去看看我们的会有怎样的发展
never had a chance to see where this could go.
因为我真的很喜欢你
Because I really liked you.
我很长一段时间都没有
And I haven't felt this way about anyone
对谁有过这种感觉
in a really long time.
但我受够了
But I am done
做一个你对你妻子欺瞒的女人
being the woman you lie to your wife about.
我之前有过这样的经历
I have lived this entire story before,
结果并不美好
and it doesn't end well,
我不能再经历一次了
and I couldn't go through with it again,
即使我很想
even if I wanted to.
你明白吗
Do you understand?
我当然明白
Of course I understand.
那我
Um... should I...
那我走了还是...
should I let myself out, or, uh...
嗯
Yeah.
我也觉得你该走了
Guess you should.
你应该找人把那个修好
You should get someone to fix that.
我知道
Yeah, I know.
给水管工打了几次电♥话♥了
Called the plumber a couple of times.
一直放我鸽子
Just keeps standing me up.
如果你愿意我可以帮你修好
I mean, I can fix it for you right now if you want.
还是算了
Or not.
好吧
No.
谢谢
Thank you.
好了
That's it.
看起来是个旧水槽
Seems like an old sink.
我还是到底下去把这个拧紧
I might as well just get under there and tighten it up.
非常感谢你的帮助
Thank you so much for doing this.
没关系
Yeah. No problem.
我很喜欢做这些事
This is fun for me.
在你走之前我可以给你做顿晚餐
I-I could make you some dinner, you know, before you go.
好啊
Okay.
我有些鸡蛋
Well, I have some eggs or...
你在做什么
Uh, what are you doing?
我来给我们做点吃的
I'm going to make us something. Yeah.
不是我要给你做饭
Well, no, I-I offered to make you dinner.
是很感谢你的提议
Yeah, and I appreciated that offer.
放着我来吧
Now, um, give me some space.
去给自己倒杯酒放轻松
Go pour yourself a glass of wine. Relax.
你妻子很美
Your wife is very beautiful.
是
Yeah.
毫无疑问
She's definitely that.
你真的和她结束了吗
Did you really end it with her?
我发誓
I swear.
你跟她说了我的事吗
Did you tell her about me?
没有
No.
那么做好像太残忍♥了
That just seemed cruel.
你说了什么
What did you say?
我说...
I said...
我不再爱她了然后...
I didn't love her anymore, and...
她说她也不爱我了
she said she didn't love me anymore, either.
为什么你们俩怎么了
Why? What happened between you two?
我...
I, uh...
我去打仗了
I went to war.
我...
I just...
我变了
Changed me.
我找不出更好的方式来形容
I don't know how to describe it any better than that.
海蒂她是单亲妈妈抚养长大的
And Heidi, she was raised by a single mom
可她妈妈付不起房♥租所以...
who couldn't make the rent, and, uh...
她基本上是在车里长大的
she basically grew up in a car.
她需要一个男人一个真正的男子汉
She wanted a man, you know-- capital "M."
一个能够照顾她的人
Someone to take care of her,
要坚强能挣钱
be strong, make money,
告诉她她很美
tell her she was pretty.
她再也不想过担惊受怕的日子
She just didn't want to have to worry anymore.
她以为自己嫁给了一个这样的人
That's who she thought she married.
我们俩都以为我是这样的人
That's who we both thought I was.
哪里变了呢
What changed?
是我...
It was my, uh...
第二次到阿富汗去打仗然后...
second combat tour in Afghanistan, and...
我去了12个月
I'd been deployed for 12 months,
去了那么久真是荒唐
which is a ridiculous amount of time.
有一天我们基地的发电机没油了
And one day, we ran out of fuel for the generator on our base, and, uh...
我和我排里的几个人开了一辆悍马
I took out a Humvee with a few of the guys from my platoon.
那本来只是一次简单的补给任务可...
It was just supposed to be a simple resupply mission, but...
我们接到了错误的情报
we'd been given the wrong information,
当我们到达那里的时候...
and when we got there...
那里根本没有燃料
...the fuel didn't exist.
所以我们只好空手而归
So we had to return empty-handed
沿着早上去的那条路原路返回
on the same road we had traveled that morning,
结果这么做又蠢又危险
which is a stupid and dangerous thing to do.
当时我的服役期只剩下两周
I just had two weeks left on my tour,
我满脑子想的都是回家去找海蒂
and all I could think about was getting home to Heidi,
洗个澡
a bath,
在阳台上喝杯啤酒
a beer on our deck,
哄伯蒂希睡觉
putting Bodhi to sleep
脱掉她的衣服然后...
and, uh, taking her clothes off and, uh...
抱歉
Sorry.
不必
No.
我能理解
I understand.
总之吧...
Anyway, um...
我无意中瞥见
Out of the corner of my eye,
一些孩子在一幢楼的门后望着我们
I could see these kids watching us from the door of a building, and...
那里曾经是所学校不过被我们炸了
It used to be a school, but we bombed it.
当时...
And, uh...
我感到很紧张
My stomach just fell
因为我来的路上见到过那些孩子
because I had seen those same kids on the way out,
他们又来等着我们了
and here they were again waiting for us.
我恳求道 "上帝基♥督♥耶稣
I just begged, "God, Jesus,
圣母玛丽让我们过去吧
Mary, just let us pass.
让那些孩子待在残破的建筑里"
Keep those kids in the fucking rubble."
其中一个孩子
One of them...
他个子很高
he was tall.
肯定有十三四岁了
Had to be 13 or 14.
果然他跑向我们
Sure enough, he came running towards us
手里拿着一个像是武器的东西
with what looked like a weapon.