极品老妈

Mom S03E01

Part 3 Jan. 4, 2020, 9:28 a.m.

Uh, it's my heart.
是我们得担心的遗传病吗
Something hereditary we need to worry about?
不只是多年艰苦的生活导致的
No, just years of hard living finally caught up with me.
也许我们该担心一点
Maybe we should worry a little.
亲爱的我
Honey, I-I...
我知道我见到你时打算跟你说什么
I knew what I was gonna say to you when I saw you,
但现在我不知道从何说起了
but now I-I don't know where to start.
跟她说说你对我说的话啊
Just tell her what you told me.
邦妮送你去领养是我这辈子
Bonnie, giving you up was the hardest thing
做过的最艰难的事和犯下的最糟糕的错
and the worst mistake I ever made in my whole life.
但是我想告诉你
But I want you to know
我每天都在想你
that I thought of you every single day.
真棒你为什么不回来
Yeah, terrific. Why didn't you come back?
你说你会回来的
You said you were gonna come back.
我想的我试过了
Well, I wanted to. I tried.
你让我在寄养家庭之间被踢来踢去
You left me bouncing around foster homes.
我在努力赚钱摆脱困境
I was trying to make money, trying to get on my feet.
好吧所以呢
Yeah, so?
事情变得很复杂
It got complicated.
那是什么意思
What the hell does that mean?
天啊
Oh, god.
我曾是塔霍的酒吧服务员
I was a cocktail waitress in Tahoe.
我遇见了一个男人
And I met this guy...
跟他同居了
and I moved in with him.
然后呢
And?
然后
And...
告诉我
Tell me.
他说他不想要孩子
He said he didn't want any kids around.
抱歉
I'm sorry.
我不知道这部分
I-I didn't know this part.
所以你选择了你的幸福而不是我的
So you picked your happiness over mine.
我当时很年轻很害怕
I was young, I was scared.
我能怎么做呢我搞砸了
What can I say? I screwed up.
不我对她才是搞砸了
No, I screwed up with her.
你对我做的事是无可原谅的
What you did to me is unforgivable.
我知道
I know.
往好的方面看她快死了
On the bright side, she's dying.
你走了很久
You were gone a long time.
我决定跑步直到我不再生气
I decided to run until I wasn't mad anymore.
我大概跑了18英里吐了不得不坐公交回来
I went, like, 18 miles, puked and had to take the bus back.
听着玛乔丽想跟你谈谈所以
Listen, Marjorie really wanted to talk to you, so...
别说了我已经知道她要说什么了
Stop. I already know what she's gonna say.
我没必要听她
I don't need to hear it come out
用她的萎缩小苹果头说出来
of her shrunken little apple head.
你好啊邦妮
Hello, Bonnie.
你不知道怎么提醒我吗
Do you not know how to give a heads up?
坐下听苹果头说话
Sit down and listen to the apple head.
让我猜猜你想要我原谅我母亲
Let me guess-- you want me to forgive my mother
邀请她重回我的生活
and invite her back into my life.
不我只是
No, I just...
那女人抛弃了我
That woman threw me away,
从那天开始的每一天我都觉得我不招人喜欢
and I've spent every day since then thinking I was unlovable.
有时候你的确如此
And sometimes you are.
话虽如此但你可能还有别的选择
That being said, there might be an alternative
而不是这辈子都恨你母亲
to hating your mother for the rest of your life.
你引起了我的注意
You got my attention.
进来吧
Come on in.
谢谢你见我
Thanks for seeing me.
你打电♥话♥来时我好高兴
Oh, I was so happy when you called.
你想喝咖啡吗
You want some coffee?
好啊
Sure.
黑咖啡可以吗
Black okay?
可以
That's fine.
你在这里住了多久
So how long have you lived here?
大概20年
About 20 years.
这里挺不错的
It's nice.
才不是
No, it ain't.
的确不是
No, it ain't.
我想你要问我很多问题啊
I guess you got a lot of questions for me, huh?
是啊
Well, yeah.
我对我父亲一无所知
I don't know anything about my father.
甚至连他的名字都不知道
I don't even know his name.
他叫亨利
It was Henry.
他是个好人
Uh, just a terrific guy.
很有幽默感
Had a great sense of humor.
他高大英俊
He was handsome, tall.
车技不好
Couldn't ride a motorcycle to save his life.
真的
Literally.
他不是保罗·纽曼
So he wasn't Paul Newman.
另一个幻想破灭了
And another fantasy dies.
我觉得你也许想拥有他的照片
I thought you might like to have a picture of him.
他抱的是我吗
Is that... me he's holding?
是的
Yeah.
这时候我大概两岁吗
What, was I about two years old here?
不大概六个月
No, about six months.
你怎么回事
So what was your deal?
吸毒酗酒
Drugs? Booze?
抱歉
Sorry?
我只是觉得如果我们是母女
Well, I just assumed if we're related,
肯定两者必占其一或者两者都是
it must be one or the other or both.
不
Oh, no.
我抽过一点大♥麻♥
Well, I smoked a little pot,
但那一直让我很多疑
but it just always made me paranoid.
我从来都不喜欢喝酒
And I never developed a taste for alcohol.
还有不喜欢的吗
It has a taste?
克丽丝蒂告诉我你有麻烦
Uh, Christy told me that you had a problem.
但你好像在处理
But you seem to be dealing with it.
我挺好的
I'm doing great.
是的
Yes, you are.
总之
Anyway...
我来这里是想告诉你
...I came here to, uh, tell you that,
我原谅你了
um, I forgive you.
谢谢
Mm, thank you.
不别谢我
No, don't thank me.
我这样做不是为了你
I'm not doing it for you.
而是为了我
I'm doing it for me.
你什么意思
What do you mean?
雪莉我的一个好朋友告诉我
Shirley, a good friend of mine told me
如果我原谅你
if I could forgive you,
我的心里可能就不会再愤怒
I could fi... finally be free of all the anger in my heart.
我真的需要解脱
And I really... need to be free of it.
因为如果不这样我
Because if I'm not, I'm, uh...
我就会再次酗酒
I'm gonna drink again.
或者跑到死
Or jog myself to death.
那挺好的
That's good.
我们可以从头来过
Then we... we can start over.
我想不行
No, I don't think so.
我原谅你不代表
I-I... Just because I forgive you
我想让你出现在我的生活之中
doesn't mean I want you in my life.
那也是我朋友告诉我的
That's something my friend told me, too.
这朋友是谁
Who's this friend?
说实话她不像是朋友
Well, to be honest, she's not so much a friend
更像是我未曾拥有过的母亲
as the... mother I never had.
但我绝对不会告诉她那话的
But I'll be damned if I'll tell her that.
好吧我得走了
Okay, uh, I got to go.
就走吗
Already?
我会再次见到你吗
Am I... am I gonna see you again?
我不知道
I don't know.
也许吧
Maybe.
我需要一些时间
I need some time.
我能抱抱你吗