反叛者（2017）

*一嗒嗒二嗒嗒三嗒嗒四嗒嗒*
*One, and in comes the two to the three and four*
*我要启动珍藏的节奏了*
*Then I drop the beat I have in store*
*精气神儿到达巅峰*
*Lay dynamics on the top like a rug*
*顺滑的唱段紧接着强力的鼓点*
*Make it sound smooth and later make a dub*
他当时有着"我绝不会在我的专辑里乱骂"的态度
His position was, "I'm not gonna cuss on my records."
*我不是文盲 不*
*I am not illiterate, no,*
*连边都沾不上 跟白♥痴♥完全不像*
*not even a little bit, nothing like an idiot*
"我是个真正的说唱歌♥手"
"I'm a real MC."
"我不想被拿来和N.W.A作比较"
"I don't want to be compared to N.W.A"
"我也不需要这样做"
"I don't need to do that."
*跟着韵律一起摇摆 它就是能让你澎湃*
*Let the rhythm take you, shake it 'cause it makes you*
他就像是一剂解药
And he was kind of like the antidote to that.
*一个个进来吧 别优柔寡断的*
*Go in like a knot, don't be a puff*
*这调调我用了 因为Dre说这够放克了*
*And I let it play 'cause Dre say it funky enough*
我们当时事业正风生水起
We were on a roll at the time,
并且还在做两部视频
and workin' on two videos,
但他那次和一个年轻的姑娘在一起
but he was hangin' out with this young lady,
嗑了摇♥头♥丸♥ 疯狂地做♥爱♥
havin' this wild sexcapade with Ecstasy pills.
*越来越放克 越来越放克了*
*It's getting funky, it's getting funky*
然后他决定自己开车回家
And he decided he wanted to drive home...
药效还没过
...still under the influence.
于是他就在高速公路上睡着了
And he fell asleep on the freeway.
他的车翻了
His car flipped.
他被甩出后车窗
He shot out of the back window.
身子在高速公路上 上下弹跳
He bounced up and down on the freeway,
后来他们发现他
and they found him
穿着皮夹克挂在高速公路一边栏杆的外面
hanging off the side of the freeway from his leather coat,
四颗门牙在一颗树里
and his four front teeth were in a tree.
我接到了一个Mike Concepcion打来的电♥话♥
I get a call from Mike Concepcion.
他说 "听我说 兄弟"
He says, "Listen, man."
"你哥们出了一场非常严重的车祸"
"Your boy got into a really bad car accident."
"他在凯撒医院 你该去看看他"
"He's at Kaiser hospital. You should go check him out."
我记得走进医院的病房♥
I remember walkin' in the room, in the hospital,
看着他
lookin' at him...
难以置信
in disbelief.
我甚至没法认出他来
I couldn't even recognize him.
他经历了14个小时的整形手术
He went through 14 hours of plastic surgery
单为修复他的脸
to just rebuild his face.
五官都被放回了原位
Everything was put back into place.
他恢复了原貌
He looked the same.
所有事情都一如往常
Everything was the same,
除了他的声音
except for his voice.
他的声线不复存在了
His voice was gone.
*飙下歌♥词吗 好吧*
*Drop the lyrics? A'ight.*
*一嗒嗒二嗒嗒三嗒嗒四嗒嗒*
*One, and in comes the two to the three and four*
*我要启动珍藏的节奏了*
*Then I drop the beat I have in store*
*精气神儿到达巅峰*
*Lay dynamics on the top like a rug*
*顺滑的唱段紧接着强力的鼓点*
*Make it sound smooth and later make a dub*
*清晰地发音 你才能听个清楚*
*Enunciate well, so that you can tell*
*我不是文盲 不 连边都沾不上*
*I am not illiterate, no, not even a little bit*
*跟白♥痴♥完全不像*
*Nothing like an idiot*
*懂了吗 你想听唱片 好啊我来搞定*
*Get it? You want the record? Cool, I'm with it*
*跟着韵律一起摇摆 它就是能让你澎湃*
*Let the rhythm take you, shake it 'cause it makes you*
*我拧开音乐之门的把手 你就溜进去*
*As I turn the knob to the door you escape through*
*一个个进来吧 别优柔寡断的*
*Go in like a knot, don't be a puff*
*这调调我用了 因为Dre说这够放克了*
*And I let it play 'cause Dre say it funky enough*
奇怪的是
What's weird is...
奇怪的是
What's weird is,
在那张专辑发行 还有 还有那件事发生后
after that record came out and... and that thing happened,
连听它都成了个真正的难题
it was a real problem even listenin'
听这张专辑都做不到
to that stuff, you know?
因为我以前真的很棒 对吧 在那会
'Cause I was pretty good, you know, back in the days, man.
但我的工作就是扮演好自己的角色
But my job was just to play my role
去帮助他们创造出他们的艺术品
to help them build their art.
而且我不觉得工作室里的任何人
And I don't think anybody was in the studio,
除了Dre 做得比我更多
besides Dre, more than me.
因为他一进录音室我就跟着进去
You know, because I went when he went.
他回家时 我才会回家
When he went home, I went home.
当有采访时 他们就会坐下来
And when the interviews came and they would sit down,
我却不得不站在镜头之外 你知道吗
I would have to stand just outside of frame, you know?
然后他们就会谈论我写的东西
And they would talk about stuff that I wrote.
"你为什么非要叫我们婊♥子♥呢"
"Why you gotta call us bitches."
"她称 立刻地 就称自己是婊♥子♥了"
"She call... right off, she callin' herself a bitch."
我心想 "不是那样的"
And I think to myself, "That ain't it."
"才不是我那样写的原因"
"That ain't why I wrote that."
但我只能坐在椅子上只能
And I gotta sit in the chair like... You know?
那时候很痛苦 真的痛苦
And it was tough. It's tough.
对于一个十九二十岁的孩子来说
It was tough for a 19, 20-year-old kid
很难去理解和处理那种感情
to have to deal with that emotion.
但要说做我的专辑 确实很棒
But doin' my record, it was great.
你知道 这 呃 让我感觉被认可了
You know, it was, uh... I felt validated.
当他们告诉你你最牛逼的时候
And when they tell you you're the greatest,
接着没花多长时间我就开始觉得
then didn't take me long before I start...
"嗯哼 说不定我确实是最牛逼的"
"Hmm. Maybe I am the greatest."
所以我可能就开始
And so maybe I started
自我膨胀 走向极端了
really goin' overboard then with the excesses.
我拥有过这一切了
I had it all.
它就在这里 就在掌心之中
It was right here. It was right here.
但在
And within...
眨眼之间 什么都没了
moments, it was all gone.
我曾经真的很爱Jimmy
I really did love Jimmy,
但我就是没办法成为他生命里的那个人
but I just couldn't be that person in his life.
身边有太多毒品了 你知道
There was a lot of drugs around, you know,
并且我还是个控制欲这么强的人
and I was always such a control freak
它阻碍了我的工作 等等
that it got in the way of work and things like that.
事情 呃 变得疯狂起来
It, um, it got nuts and...
曾经有一段时间
There was just a point that...
那会儿我觉得"我不能再这样对他了"
where it was like, "I can't do this to him anymore."
"如果爱是纯粹的 而我爱这个男人的话"
"If love is love and I love this man,"
"并且在意他"
"And I care about him,"
"我就不能在这件事上给他道德层面的伤害"
"I cannot morally hurt him anymore over this."
"而且这种情况在一段时间内都不会好转"
"And this situation is not gonna get better for a while."
Stevie跟我分手之后
After Stevie and I broke up,
我真的很孤独 孤独疯了
I was really lonely, and I was freaked out.
不知道他妈的发生了什么
I didn't know what the hell was goin' on.
八十年代对我来说很艰难
The '80s were tough for me,
因为我从为初露头角的新星制♥作♥
because where I had been into breaking artists
突然转到为Dire Straits
I had suddenly moved to Dire Straits,
Stevie Nicks and Bob Seger 这种已经成功的艺人制♥作♥
Stevie Nicks and Bob Seger, which were successful artists.
A&R(艺人开♥发♥部门)的人不想给我新人
The A&R guys didn't want to give me the new artists.
他们觉得请我太贵了
Thought I was too expensive,
觉得我会 就是 花的时间太长
thought I would, you know, take too long.
觉得我要表达的东西太多
I have too much to say,
无论厂牌里的这些人想的是什么
or whatever the stuff is that people at the labels think.
也许的确是这样
And maybe rightfully so,
他们对我的看法是对的
they thought it about me.
所以我真的很消沉
So I was really down.
我妈妈和我在纽约的家中
My mother and I, being at home in New York,
而Jimmy自己在加州
and Jimmy's in California by himself,
我们很担心
we're worried.
他有没有吃东西 他有没有东西可吃
Is he eating? Does he have food?
所以我们每个假期都是去加州过的
So every vacation we took was to California.
去支持他 或去看看他的事业走到哪一步了
To support him, or to see where he was in his career.
因为他的成功不能算作完整
Because his success wasn't complete
除非我们能够和他一起分享
unless we could enjoy it with him.
Jimmy也喜欢我们在身边
And Jimmy liked us around,
因为这样有人照顾他
because he had somebody to take care of him.
但是当Vicki出现的时候
But when Vicki came into the picture,
她成了我妈妈和我的结合
she was my mom and I together...
就是 她自立
you know, self-sufficient.