沉默的天使

The Alienist S01E01

Part 5 June 27, 2020, 4:56 p.m.

只有我变成他
only if I become him,
如果我亲自割开那孩子的喉咙
if I cut the child's throat myself...
只有用我的尖刀划过那具无助的躯体
if I run my knife through the helpless body
将无辜的双眼从那张惊恐的脸上剜出来
and pluck innocent eyes from a horrified face,
只有这样我才能真正理解我自己
only then will I come to truly understand what I am.
只有这样我才能明白驱使我的动力
Only then will I recognize that what drives me
并不是情感的缺失
is not an absence of emotion at all.
而是情感的折磨
Rather, a torrent of feeling.
让我黑化的灵魂拥有了
The kind that gives meaning and purpose
意义和内涵
to my own blackened soul.
我必须像他那样对待生命
I must see life as he sees it.
像他那样感受痛苦
Feel pain as he feels it.
走过他走的路
Take the same path he takes.
没错
Yes.
不管通向哪里我必须跟上他
I must follow this wherever it goes.
就算会带我遁入地狱的最深处
Even if it leads me to the darkest pit of Hell.
怎么了孩子
What's wrong, child?
没事的富勒博士
Please don't concern yourself, Dr. Fuller.