随性（2016）

Easy S03E06

Part 5 Aug. 5, 2020, 2:21 p.m.

我把写了你的章节带来了
I have the pages that are about you... with me.
我本不打算给你看的
I wasn't planning on showing it to you.
我不知道我为何在乎我想这会
I don't know why I care. I think it'll...
让你好受点或者理解什么的
make you feel better, or understand, or something.
我真的很紧张
I feel really, really nervous.
-我能看看吗 -嗯
- Can I see 'em? - Yes.
我不会我不会抓狂的
I'm... I'm not gonna... I'm not gonna lose my shit.
我明白我我害怕
I understand. Like, I'm ju-- I'm afraid.
我我
I'm... I'm...
提前就忙着辩护生气
preemptively defensive and angry,
我想看你的作品
and, you know, I wanna see your work.
以前想现在也想至少
I wanted to see it then, I wanna see it now, at least, just...
我不知道我能不能在这...
I don't know if I can be... here for...
好的
All right, well...
你想去走走
Do you wanna take a walk
-还是去上厕所 -我去上个厕所
- or go to the bathroom? - Yeah, I'll just go to the bathroom.
写得很好
It's, uh... It's really-- It's good.
真的很好
It's really good.
你觉得
Do you feel...
你有被曲解吗
misrepresented?
没有
No.
这是你的故事
It's just your story, you know?
我我好像从没
And I... I just... I don't think I ever really...
想过
thought about, um...
事情的另一面
the other side of it, really.
我做这个很久了
You know, I've been doin' this stuff a long time, and, uh...
我总是觉得
And I always think that, like, you know,
"这就是真♥相♥" 你懂吗
"This is it, this is the truth," You know?
我不知道我
And I don't know that I...
真的有考虑过
honestly...think about...
我笔下的
the people who I, you know...
那些人
I'm writing about.
但这是你的故事我
But this is your story, and I, you know, I...
我觉得
I... I think it's, um...
我觉得很诚实我觉得画也很好
I think it's honest. I think the... the art is great.
你知道
And, uh, you know...
我没法
I can't really...
在最后
defend...
为自己的行为辩解
my behavior towards the end of this.
我觉得你说得对
I mean, I... I think you're... you're right.
但奇怪的是
But what's odd is that, like, um...
我并没有想解释什么但是
I'm not trying to explain anything, but, like...
我看到书里的我我不
Like, I see myself in this, and I... and I... I don't...
我很难和任何人
It's very hard for me to empathize with, uh...
产生共鸣
anybody.
因为我以自我为中心尤其是对女人
And, um, because I just am self involved, and especially women...
我又知道什么
How... You know, how do I know?
谢谢
Thank you.
不过
But, um...
你知道
you know...
在那期间
during that time...
我什么都找不到
I couldn't find anything.
我当时在做的工作
Any work that I was doing...
我在那个班上课的时候
you know, when I was teaching that class, and having, you know...
我们在聊那些事
and we were talking and stuff, you know?
我没有画画我总是画画的
And , uh... I just wasn't drawing. And I always draw, you know?
我我觉得
I... And I... I think...
脑子里像是有两件事在同时发生
there's like two things happening in the brain.
我的大脑我不知道我能不能概括
My brain. I don't know if I can generalize.
但是我真的感觉和你有共鸣
But, you know, I felt a real connection to you
我很坦诚
and I was honest about it
然后性♥爱♥将其毁掉因为
and then... and then the sex did fuck it up, because, like...
我脑子那部分不知怎么就停止运转了
that part of my brain kind of went out somehow.
我明白
I understand.
-真的吗 -真的
- Do you? - I do.
-真的 -你的
- I do. - Did, uh... Did your, um...
你的婚姻幸存了吗
Did your marriage survive?
变得复杂了
I mean, it complicated it.
幸存了一段时间一段时间
I did... For a while. For a while.
但是之后的几年里
But, you know, it was kind of like a...
感觉每天都在被惩罚
daily punishment for a few years.
当然你懂的
Which of course, you know...
书里有写吗
Is that in the book?
嗯
Yeah.
真好
Well, good for you.
我告诉自己我不会在乎你喜不喜欢
I told myself I wouldn't care whether you liked it or not.
但我还是来了
Here I am, like...
这很好
It's good. And, um...
我很抱歉
And, like, I'm... I'm sorry.
抱歉不管什么
I'm sorry. And like, whatever...
你懂的我不是
Like, you know, it's, you know... I'm not...
我不知道
I don't know.
很有必要
It's important that...
进行这些对话
you know, these... These conversations happen.
我不知道会发生什么
I... I don't really know what's gonna happen.
但在这一刻我可以接受
But, uh... But like, I am, in this moment, able to take it in,
真的很抱歉
and I... and I'm sorry, honestly, for...
谢谢你
Thank you.
为我
...whatever I--
那样的行为抛弃你而感到抱歉
Well, for behaving like that, dismissing you,
造成这样的事
causing that stuff to happen, you know?
我想我很感激这书出来了
And I guess I'm, uh-- I'm-- I'm grateful that it got through.
明白吗
Okay?
我也许会失业但我会
I may be, uh, you know, out of work, but I'll... I'll be...
他们怎么说的开明
What do they say? Woke?
我会变得开明
I'll be woke.
开明和破产
Woke and broke.
没你想的那么糟对吗
It's not as bad as you thought, right?
是的
No.
祝你的书大卖♥♥
Well, I... you know, good luck with it.
谢谢
Thank you.
谢谢和我聊天
Thanks for talkin' to me.
也谢谢你和我聊天
Thank you for talking to me.
这你懂的
And it's, uh... you know...
很高兴见到你
It's good to see you.
嗯
Yeah.
谁
Hello?
我是杰克布我能上来吗拜托
Hey, it's Jacob. Can I come up, please?
好
Hello.
好
Hi.
我去那坐着
I'm gonna sit in there.
你好吗
How's it going?
那个
Okay, so...
公园的事我很抱歉
I'm sorry about the park.
那
That was...
很丢人
embarrassing.
太可笑了
Fucking ridiculous.
我很可笑
I'm ridiculous.
你知道
And, uh, you know, about...
那晚的事
the other night...
我一直在想
I have been thinkin' about it.
挺好的
It was nice.
挺好的
It was nice.
感觉
It felt...
你知道
you know...
感觉很舒服
It felt comfortable.
不奇怪
It wasn't weird.
拜托
I mean, come on.
我爱你
I love you.
我们在一起很久了
I mean, you know, we've been together for a long time.