杰西卡·琼斯（2015）

Jessica Jones S02E08

Part 3 Sept. 4, 2020, 9:47 a.m.

If one job doesn't work out, you find another one.
干过汉堡厨师还在色情音像店干过
Flipped burgers at Hambone's. Worked at an adult video store.
还有其他的
Other stuff.
几次没交房♥租就越来越不可收拾
You miss rent a few times. It sorta snowballs.
你会想不到人能适应什么
You'd be surprised what you can get used to.
你根本不了解我说的是吧
You have no idea what I'm talking about, huh?
你都不自己去买♥♥杂货
You don't even buy your own groceries.
我在一间这个餐厅这么大的拖车里长大
I grew up in a trailer the size of this dining room
还有四个兄弟姐妹
with four siblings.
知道孩子会对那些衣服不合身的穷♥人♥孩子做什么吗
You know what kids do to the poor kid whose clothes don't fit?
他们会让学校像他们的家一样不堪忍♥受
They make sure that school is as much a living hell as home.
我拥有的一切都是白手起家建立的
Everything I have, I built from nothing.
真没想到
Wouldn't have guessed that.
我要去工作了
I'm gonna go to work.
你得另找个地方住
You need to find another place to stay.
好吧我以为...
Okay. I thought...
什么你的治愈者是你的饭票吗
Thought what? That your healer boy was your meal ticket?
我或许病了但我不是冤大头
I may be sick, but I'm not a sucker.
好吧别信我
Fine. Don't believe me.
你就了此残生吧
You can die a cripple,
一个人住在你白手起家建立的玻璃盒子里
all alone in your fancy glass box that you built from nothing.
我才不在乎呢
I don't give a rat's ass.
你一点没变
You haven't changed at all.
你根本不知道我现在什么样我经历了什么
You have no clue who I am or what I've been through.
我只是长得像你曾经认识的一个人
I just look like someone you used to know.
你对我来说也是
Wish I could say the same about you.
不你说得对我是不了解
No, you're right. I don't know.
那么你跟我说说吧
So, why don't you tell me?
老天啊杰西卡跟我说话
For Christ's sake, Jessica. Talk to me.
我曾想象你和爸爸在天堂
I used to imagine that you and Dad were up there.
什么的
Or wherever.
看着我守护我
Watching me. Looking out for me.
但是看来只有爸爸咯
But guess it was just Dad though, huh?
而你在人间跟其他人一起翻篇了
While you were down here moving on with somebody else.
没那么简单的
It's not that simple.
我得说你的择偶标准真是直线下降
Gotta say, your standards really took a nosedive.
你父亲和我并不幸福
You know, your father and I weren't happy.
我们有问题的我们经常吵架
We had problems. We argued constantly.
才不是呢
No, you didn't.
当然没当着你但是这样
Not in front of you. But yeah.
我们当时几乎一年没做♥爱♥了
We hadn't had sex in almost a year.
我真心不需要知道这个
I so don't need to hear that.
我们本来要离婚了
We were talking about getting divorced.
你为什么撒谎我当时也在的
Why are you lying? I was there.
你当时还是孩子你知道个什么
You were a kid, what the hell did you know?
他和我就不是一种人
He and I were just different.
我很有野心
I was ambitious.
我觉得他让我窒息他觉得我责怪他
I felt stifled by him. He felt berated by me.
或许他没说错
And maybe he was.
我本来有可能在密歇根大学获得
I could have been on the tenure track in the math department
数学部的终身职位但他不肯搬家我就没去
at the University of Michigan. But he wouldn't move. So I stayed.
结果我只能在大专里教一群学渣
And I taught junior college to a bunch of underachievers.
我为此恨他
And I hated him for that.
而他恨我让他觉得不够格
And he hated me for making him feel inadequate.
真是扯淡
This is such crap.
我们就是那样一直都是
It's who we were. Who we are.
菲利普也知道
Phillip knew.
什么
What?
对他碰巧撞见了
Yeah. He walked in on your dad and me
我和你♥爸♥爸对吼
in the middle of a screaming match.
天呐他当时的表情啊
Jesus. The look on his face.
他从未跟我说过
He never said anything to me.
所以他才开始闹情绪
That's why he started acting out.
记得他被停学的事吗
Remember when he got suspended?
你父亲想让他吃多动症药物
Your father wanted to put him on ADD meds.
菲利普有多动症
Phillip had ADD?
制药公♥司♥认为
Every kid with a pulse has ADD
所有有心跳的孩子都有多动症
according to the pharmaceutical companies.
卡尔总为这事生气
Karl always gets worked up about that.
儿童的过度服药
The over-medication of children.
是啊何必给孩子用药
Yeah. Why medicate kids
可以彻底改变他们的基因密♥码♥嘛
when you can alter their entire genetic code?
别
Don't.
卡尔拿不能表达意愿的人做实验
Karl experiments on people who can't give consent.
天呐你真会封闭自己
Jesus, you're so adept at shutting yourself down.
或许是因为我担心身边的人会悲惨地死去
Maybe it's because I'm afraid people will tragically die on me.
真不知道我怎么这样
Wonder where I got that from.
-事故之前你就这样了 -才不是的
- You were like that before the accident. - No, I wasn't.
你当时就没有朋友不肯加入运动队
You didn't have any friends. You refused to play team sports.
你整天把自己锁在房♥间里
You locked yourself in your room all day,
演奏压抑的摇滚乐
playing depressing rock.
涅槃才不压抑
Nirvana isn't depressing.
是吗那主唱不自杀了吗
Oh, really? Didn't that guy commit suicide?
你还想粉碎我其他的哪些记忆
So what other memories of mine do you wanna crush?
我不是想粉碎它们我是在纠正它们
I'm not trying to crush them, I'm just correcting them.
别说了
Well, stop.
我们的生活并非是你错误认定的
Our lives just weren't the storybook bullshit
那种扯淡童话仅此而已
you seem to think they were. That's all.
有些部分在我看来是很完美的
Well, there were parts of it that seemed pretty perfect to me.
圣诞节感恩节
Christmases. Thanksgiving.
那个你用洋芋做的奇怪的棉花糖玩意
That weird marshmallow thing you made with yams.
嗯
Yeah.
连我也无法毁掉一桶棉花糖黄油
Not even I can ruin what is essentially a vat of marshmallows,
和糖的混合物
butter and sugar.
怎么了
What?
我看你的时候我看不到我妈妈
When I look at you, I don't see my mother.
但你的声音
But your voice...
让我觉得像是跟你回到了老房♥子回到了
makes me feel like I'm back with you in our old house, before...
一切发生之前
everything.
记得我们以前每年夏天去海滩的事吗
Remember those trips we took to the shore every summer?
游乐园
Playland?
最后的那年你不肯去
That last year, you refused to go.
你毫无兴趣求我们留下你
You were so over it. Begged us to leave you behind.
青少年都是自我为中心的小混♥蛋♥
Teenagers are... self-absorbed little assholes.
他们怕高
They were scared of heights.
记得吗菲利普和爸爸
Do you remember? Phillip and Dad.
所以我一向知道摩天轮只属于我们
So I always knew that the Ferris wheel was our thing.
就你和我
You know, just you and me.
但你不肯去
But you refused to ride.
说它无聊不过是一直转圈圈
Said it was boring, just keeps going around in a circle.
我逼你去了你不肯跟我说话
But I forced you to, and you wouldn't speak to me.
但我知道你喜欢的跟我一样喜欢
But I knew that you loved it, just as much as I did.
高高在上没人触得到
Being up high and untouchable.
最终你忍♥不住
Eventually, you just couldn't help yourself.
你咧开嘴
You busted out into this big,
露出美丽的笑容
beautiful grin.
你都怎么出去的
How were you getting out?
你说什么呢
What are you talking about?
卡尔每晚都把你锁在这里
Karl locked you in here every night,
但你还是瞒着他跑了出去
but you were getting out without him knowing.
-怎么做到的 -拜托
- How? - Come on.
你已经如愿了可以把一个人交给警♥察♥
You've got what you wanted, someone to turn in to the cops.
他们随时会到了
They'll be here any minute.
别折腾了出不去的
Just leave it alone. There's no way out.
你就不能放过他吗
Can't you just let him go?
去他的卡尔
Screw Karl.
你干什么呢
What are you doing?
我还不知道
I don't know yet.
绕到后面去
Go around back.
没人我说了她是在骗我们
Nobody. I told you, she's setting us up.
杰西还是我