健身世界（2021）

我现在处于长久以来的最健康状态
I'm healthier than I've been in a long, long time,
我都不记得有多久了
longer than I can remember.
其实我都不确定我是否曾这么健康过
Actually, I'm not sure I've ever been this healthy.
我迫不及待地想把过去两周 在这里学到的东西
I can't wait to take everything I've learned in here over the past two weeks
应用到我的日常生活中去
and apply it to my life out there.
多神奇啊 用餐时的冥想
I mean, meal meditations.
我已经可以想象在厨房♥里的餐桌上
I can already see doing those at the kitchen table
每天早上和家人一起冥想了
every morning with my family.
“诚实的表达”很有效 会很有帮助的
The "honest expressions" work. That's gonna be really helpful.
更不用说艺术品和日记了
Not to mention the art and the journaling,
还有大家给我的集体感
and just the feeling of community you have all given me.
谢谢你们 我知道自己不是孤独的
I mean, thank you. Knowing that I'm not alone.
对
Right.
我觉得自己焕然一新
I mean, I feel like a new person.
成了一个全新的自己 健康的自己
A new me. A healthy me.
是的 应该可以说 我对生活有了一个全新的展望
Yeah, I guess you could say I have a whole new outlook on life.
肯定的
I'll bet.
我变得更好了
I'm better.
为此 我真心地感谢大家
And for that, I'm just truly grateful to all of you.
但尤其感谢你 卢安
But especially you, Luanne,
谢谢你创造了这独一无二的康复环境
for creating this truly unique environment for recovery.
多亏了你 我准备好了
It's thanks to you that I'm ready.
我可以离开了
I'm ready to go.
你说什么屁话呢
What the fuck are you talking about?
-你说什么 -你好多了啊
-Excuse me? -You're all better, huh?
你痴心妄想
You're delusional.
卢安 你说说看 说疯话的人是我吗 还是…
Come on, Luanne. Am I the crazy one here? Or--
你知道我对“疯”这个字的看法
You know how I feel about the word "crazy."
疯只代表“我不赞同的女人”
Crazy only means "a woman I disagree with."
-好 谢谢 所以这位… -你也太过分了
-Okay, thank you. So this-- -You're also way out of line.
我现在觉得遭到了攻击
I feel very attacked right now.
我觉得你当着大家的面从地上捡起一坨屎
Well, I feel like you just took a shit on the floor in front of all of us
说它是热软糖圣代
and called it a hot fudge sundae.
-哈丽特 -怎么了 我就该坐在这里
-Harriet. -What? Am I supposed to sit here
听美国小姐发表获奖感言吗
and listen to Miss America give a fucking acceptance speech?
我们知道正面对质 对你来说很简单 哈丽特
We know that confrontation comes easy for you, Harriet.
但我们也知道 这会对你造成什么后果 对吧
But we also know where it gets you, right?
所以冷静点 亲爱的
So cool your jets, hon.
我觉得今天上午的会就到这里吧
I think that will be the end of our session this morning.
谢谢大家的出席
Thank you, everybody, for showing up.
请享受你们的自♥由♥活动时间
Please enjoy your personal hour,
我们12点30分餐厅见
and I will see you in the dining room, 12:30.
茜拉 来和我到小屋聊几句好吗
Sheila, wanna join me in the bungalow for a quick chat?
当然
Sure.
你真是火上浇油啊 不是吗
You sure took this from bad to worse, didn't you?
给
Here you go.
提醒一下 以免你忘记 说实话 你不会是第一个
So, just in case you forgot, and frankly, you wouldn't be the first,
这个体验是自愿的 你记得的 对吗
this experience is voluntary. You remember that, right?
对 记得
I do. Yes, I do.
很好 因为如果我没有提醒你
Good. Because if I haven't been reminding you of that,
那就是我失职了
I'm not doing my job.
我创立这个机构的原因
The whole reason I started this place…
来了 又是那一整套背景故事
Here we go, the whole backstory again.
她不肯吃东西 被父母送进精神病院
She wouldn't eat. Her parents sent her to a mental institution.
他们把她捆了起来 强迫喂食
They strapped her down. Force-fed her.
她发誓决不让这种事 再发生在任何人身上 这你全知道
She vowed it would never happen to anyone else. You know all this.
…到我脸色发青 但到头来 要由你决定
…until I'm blue in the face. But at the end of the day, it's up to you.
所以你怎么想
So, what do you think?
茜拉
Sheila?
是 我刚才走神了一下
Yeah. I was just thinking about something else for a second.
你能再说一次吗 我怎么想什么
But could you say that again? What did I think of what?
茜拉 你真的认为你可以回家了吗
Sheila, you really think you're ready to go home?
我很抱歉 我刚才试图用语言操控
I'm really sorry that I tried to manipulate in there,
而不是直接问我是否可以离开
instead of just asking if I could leave.
你不必道歉
You don't need to apologize.
这是认识到了伤害所在
Recognition of harm.
是你的步骤之一 在列表上的
It's one of your steps. It's on the list.
是的 那是我的列表
It is. It's my list.
但今天这种情况呢 你欠某人一个道歉
But, in this instance, while an apology is due someone,
只是不是我
it's not me.
我不会向哈丽特道歉的 那个女人…
I'm not apologizing to Harriet. I mean, that woman is--
我知道你不喜欢“疯”这个字
I know you don't like the word "crazy,"
-但她有一点… -我说的是你 茜拉
-but she's a bit-- -I'm talking about you, Sheila.
如果你在这个过程中不坦诚
If you don't engage honestly with this process,
你就欠自己一个道歉
you'll owe yourself an apology.
你应该预料到这一点的
You should've seen that one coming.
她可能把这话绣在了一个愚蠢的靠垫上
She probably has it stitched on one of her stupid fucking pillows.
你觉得你有收获吗 除了一张巨额账单之外
What do you think you're getting from this? Other than a big fucking bill.
换句话说 如果你不去努力尝试 那么没错
Put another way, if you're not going to try, then, yeah.
你不该来这里
You shouldn't be here.
我参加了所有活动和练习 我有参与
I'm doing all the activities and exercises. I'm showing up.
参与意味着要坦诚
Showing up means being honest.
不是挑我爱听的话说 而是说出真实的想法
Not saying what I wanna hear, but what's really on your mind.
没人想知道你怎么想 她最不想知道了
Nobody wants to know what you think, least of all her.
而且 你是带着支票簿来的
Besides, you're showing up with your checkbook.
这蓝绿的衣服一定很贵 本应很低廉的
All that turquoise can't be cheap. Should be.
决定权在你 茜拉 你现在就可以回家
And it's up to you, Sheila. You can go home right now.
你可以宣布康复成功 回到之前的生活
You can call it a win, pick up right where you left off in life.
或者你可以留下来投入治疗 面对感情创伤和心理问题
Or you can stay here and commit, and dig into the tough stuff.
那才是改变真正开始的地方
That's where the real change lives.
你打算怎么选
So what's it gonna be?
你只要告诉她你完成了治疗即可
All you had to do was tell her you were done.
你准备好离开了
You were ready to go.
但你胆怯了 你总是这样
But you lost your nerve like you always do.
看见你的小行李都收拾好了 我笑出了声
I laughed out loud when I saw your little bag all packed.
谢谢你啊
Thank you for that.
很高兴能让你拥有笑容
Glad I could put a smile on your face.
你真的认为那样有效 表现出真诚 感激什么的
Did you really think that would work? Just you being all sincere and grateful?
“我痊愈了 拜拜”
"I'm cured. Bye-bye."
真是令人着迷的一幕
That was fascinating to watch.
很不自然的那种 好比一只松鼠玩滑水
In an unnatural way, like a squirrel water-skiing.
你为什么在乎
Why do you care?
在乎这个词感觉不对 但是…
Well, care doesn't feel like the right word, but--
我们不可能都像你一样这么爱这地方
We can't all love it here as much as you do.
你为什么永远对我这么不友善
Why are you such a perpetual asshole to me?
-这问题问得不错 -我知道
-That's a fair question actually. -I know.
是有原因的 我只是想不起来了
There is a reason. I just can't quite put my finger on it.
和你的面容有关 至少有一部分关系
It's face-related. At least, in part.
你动过我的哑铃了
Did you do something with my hand weights?
我看起来像动过你的哑铃吗
Do I look like I did something with your hand weights?
我的天
Oh, my God.
在这里待久一点 你会变得像她一样糟
Stay here much longer, you're gonna be just as bad as she is.
真是够了
That's enough.
你确定吗 你的下场可能更糟
You sure about that? You might end up even worse.
在这鬼地方待了两周 他们只想从你身上索取更多
Two weeks of this shit and all they want is more from you.
吸干♥你♥的血 同时你的创业会死在摇篮中
Sucking you dry while your business dies on the vine.
这整件事就是个骗局
This whole thing is a racket.
看看这么大一块地♥产♥ 你觉得卢安怎么负担得起
Look at all this real estate. How do you think Luanne affords it?
你两周没有暴食催吐了
You haven't done it in two weeks.
你的气色变好了 你的感觉变好了 但她不想让你相信这一点
You look better. You feel better. But she doesn't want you to believe it.
因为你病得越重 她赚得越多
Because the sicker you are, the more she cleans up.
贪婪的卢安收入越多 你挣钱的机会越少
More revenue for greedy-ass Luanne. Less chance of any for you.
（1982年5月 最后一天）
正念进食是什么
Mindful eating. What is it?
基本上就是字面上的意思
It's pretty much what it sounds like.
吃东西的时候主动留心其中的享受和营养
Eating with awareness for enjoyment and nourishment
而不是去注意食物的其他用途
instead of all the other things that we use food for.
谁能举例子
Wanna help me out?
安慰
Comfort.
陪伴
Companionship.