败局启示录（2019）

你觉得你完全会
you feel like you could literally
哭着吓出尿来
pee in your pants and cry at the same time.
真的吓傻了 我问自己"这是真的吗"
It's, like, freaking out. It's, like, "What, is it real?"
你能感受到很多种情绪 也会有种"哇哦
You feel all this mix of emotion and you feel like, "Wow,
能站在这我真♥他♥妈♥自豪"的感觉
I'm so damn proud to be here."
全世界都在关注你
The whole world is watching you.
改革时期
索雅一直在练习四周跳
Surya has been working on a quad jump,
她想成为世界上第一位在比赛中
and she wants to be the first lady
完成该动作的女性
in the world to land it in competition.
四周跳真的非常难
A quad is a very difficult jump.
要在空中转四圈
It's four revolutions in the air.
我会在练习中做这个动作 就算摔跤了
I would do it in practice and the falls that I would take
也和我滑冰时的摔跤截然不同
were unlike any I've ever experienced when I was skating.
在练习的时候 我的四周跳是不错的
My quadruple was so fine in practice.
我能连续做很多次
I could do many times in a row,
我很自信 而且我知道我练得很努力
and I was confident and I knew I practiced so hard,
我很想在奥♥运♥会上展示出来
I wanted so bad to do it for the Olympics.
所以我说"无论如何 我都要做"
So, I say, "No matter what, I will do it."
我教练说"不行 你不能做四周跳
My coach say, "No, you don't do quad.
不要做四周跳 你只能
You don't do quad. You just...
做其他所有动作 除了四周跳"
do everything else but not quad."
他可能觉得
He probably thoughtxa0that
我♥干♥净利落地完成表演就行了
I could just do a nice, clean program,
而我野心很大 而且心意已决
and I guess I was wild and very determined
无论如何 我都要做四周跳
that I would do the quad, no matter what.
如果博纳利坚持这个选择怎么办
What if Bonaly persists with this choice?
听着 她可以做她喜欢的事
Listen, she can do what she likes,
但是她只能一个人承担结果
but she'll have to do it without me.
短节目结束时
At the end of the short program,
索雅排名第三
Surya is in third place.
金牌触手可得
A medal is within reach.
但为了得到金牌
But for that to happen,
她需要超过南茜·克里根
she needs to get past Nancy Kerrigan.
南茜在一次三周跳上失误了
Nancy misses on a triple jump.
在后台发生了一场混乱的争吵
Backstage, there's a chaotic fight.
迪蒂埃已经决定了战略
Didier has decided on a strategy.
他禁止索雅做她梦寐以求的四周跳
He forbids Surya from doing her dream quadruple.
他也不允许她妈妈出现在冰场周围
He also tells her mom that she won't be allowed rink-side.
索雅很伤心
Surya is upset.
索雅忽视了教练的指示
Surya ignores her coach's instructions
并且尝试了四周跳
and attempts the quadruple anyway.
观众很喜欢这个动作 但是这一跳转体不正
The crowd loves it. However, the jump is under-rotated.
更糟糕的是 索雅后续表演失误
Worse, she bungles the rest of her program
她最终位列第五
and finishes in fifth.
与奖牌失之交臂 于是危机爆发
With a medal out of reach, crisis erupts.
今天的争吵危及到了你和迪蒂埃的关系吗
Does today's fight endanger your relationship with Didier?
是的 有一点
A little bit, yes.
你会终止与他合作吗
Will you stop working with him?
我不知道 我们有很多事要谈
I don't know. We have a lot to discuss.
他们的想法似乎不相容
Their ideas seem to be incompatible.
索雅必须要在苏珊和迪蒂埃之间做出选择
Surya has to make a choice between Suzanne and Didier.
没有任何误解
There weren't any misunderstandings.
我们只是无法相处
We simply haven't gotten along.
很抱歉这样问 但是
Sorry for asking, but
这件事跟你妈妈有关系吗
does your mom have anything to do with this?
没有 完全没有
No, not at all.
现在一切已成定局
It's all settled now.
-结束了吗 -是的
- Is it over? - Yes.
经过七年的合作
After seven years of collaboration,
这段关系被无法挽回地断绝了
the relationship is irreparably severed.
官方称 索雅没再请过教练
Officially, Surya no longer has a coach.
她只有她妈妈
She only has her mother.
教练
妈妈
她妈妈很严厉
Her mother was very strict.
真的很严厉 而且她很
She really was. And she was very...
汤姆·柯林斯
"冰上冠军"表演秀创始人
作为教练 她对索雅很严厉很苛刻
As a coach, she was very difficult, very hard on her,
因为她想索雅能成为最好的花滑运动员
'cause she wanted her to be the best that she could be.
如果你需要做一百次 那就做一百次
If you gotta do it 100 times, do it 100 times,
直到我们得到彼此都想要的结果
until we get this the way that I want it and you want it.
慢慢来
Take your time.
不是这样 再做一次
No. Do it again!
集中精力
Pay attention!
无论女儿在哪比赛 苏珊·博纳利都会在场
Wherever her daughter competes, Suzanne Bonaly is there.
实际上 她从没离开过索雅
In fact, she never leaves her side.
她来这给索雅的服装做最后润色
She's here to put the finishing touches on Surya's costume,
也是为了严格控制索雅的事业和闲暇时间
but also to strictly control Surya's career and her leisure time.
训练她我很开心
I take pleasure in training her.
我们之间的关系
We have a different relationship
和大多数母女大不相同
than most mothers have with their daughters.
即使是生母
Even birth mothers.
我真的把自己当成她的老师
I really think of myself as her teacher.
但我也把自己当成她的妈妈
But I also consider myself her mother.
这种状态很棒
It's a wonderful situation.
很快 索雅妈妈成为了问题所在
Quickly, the problem became the mother.
很难和她共事
It was difficult to work with her
因为她一直和索雅在一起
because she was always with the girl.
有全新奉献的母亲
Devoted mother to some,
也有专横暴虐的母亲
tyrannical mother to others.
苏珊没有培训证书
Suzanne doesn't have a training certificate.
所以 阿兰·吉列蒂被选入团队指导
So, Alain Giletti is chosen to be in her corner.
索雅的编舞老师都没能
None of the succession of Surya's choreographers
说服她妈妈认识到
have convinced her mother of
花滑艺术性的重要性
the importance of artistic skating.
这个问题导致评委并不喜欢索雅的表演
It's this issue that hurts Surya with the judges.
苏珊和吉列蒂训练索雅夺得
1993年世锦赛金牌
索雅滑技一流
她完成了七个三周跳
她完成了七个三周跳和一个组合三周跳
她得了银牌
奥卡索娜·拜乌做了五次三周跳 没有组合跳跃
她得了金牌
我觉得索雅有很大的动力
I think that there was a big push
去改变她的风格
to help Surya improve her style,
艺术性 甚至是她最出色的点
her artistry, and her edge quality
而且1994年的赛事里你的确能看到她的改变
and you really did see that in her '94 season.
她很努力去变得像其他那些选手
And she really tried to look the part more
变得更优雅
and be more graceful.
她的动作设计非常巧妙 很配她的异域外表
Very stylized choreography designed to fit her exotic look.
我知道每一年我都会
I know every year, every time I would come
展现出一些新的东西
and show a new routine,
但这对我来说十分艰难 我满脑子都是
or coming it was a struggle and I was like,
"这样的话评委会喜欢吗
"Is...Is the judge going to like it this time?
是不是又错了 这样好吗 我们方向对了吗"
Are we failing again? Is it good? Are we on the right path?"
1994年冬奥会
挪威 利勒哈默尔
"有人袭击南茜·克里根
"I had no prior knowledge...
我对此事毫不知情"
of the planned assault on Nancy Kerrigan."
我没事
I'm okay.
每日新闻
"为什么是我"
疯子袭击奥林匹克滑冰选手
我很难过也很愤怒 竟然有人会做出这种事
I'm pretty upset and angry that someone would do this.
南茜和托尼亚的故事 简直无人不知
That Nancy and Tonya story was, like, the story.
没人会不关注这个故事
It was hard to escape that,
我可以想象 对于大部分人来说
and I would imagine that, for most people,
索雅就成为了一个背景板
Surya would have faded into the background.
你面对的是什么
What are you up against?
你面对的是世界冠军奥卡索娜·拜乌
You're up against the world champion in Oksana Baiul
还有一个人们都希望她
and another woman who was expected
成为世界冠军的女人
to win that world championship,
南茜·克里根
Nancy Kerrigan.
在1994年 你如何才能被注意到
So, how do you get noticed in '94
你的对手可是托尼亚 南茜 和奥卡索娜·拜乌
when you're up against Tonya, Nancy and Oksana Baiul?
这几乎不可能
It's almost impossible.