怪物：杰夫瑞·达莫的故事（2022）

DAHMER - Monster: The Jeffrey Dahmer Story S01E10

Part 3 Nov. 26, 2022, 12:13 p.m.

Then he says to Jesus,
"Remember me
when you come into your kingdom."
于是耶稣转向他
And so, Jesus turns to him,
你知道他说什么了吗？
and you know what he says?
他说：“今日你要同我在乐园里了”
He says, "Today, you will be
with me in paradise."
耶稣没有问他为什么被钉在十字架上
Jesus didn't ask him
what he'd done to get crucified,
也没有问他是否悔改
didn't ask him if he was sorry.
想得到救赎唯一要做的
All this guy had to do to be saved
就是相信耶稣是上帝的儿子
was to believe
that Jesus was the Son of God.
我们不要忘记天父
And let us not forget,
Heavenly Father,
你是一位慈爱、仁慈、公正的上帝
that you are a loving,
merciful, and just God.
我们祈求自己
可以在生活中施以怜悯和宽恕
And we ask that we may practice
mercy and forgiveness in our own lives
就像你对我们所表现出的怜悯和宽恕
as you have shown mercy
and forgiveness to us.
以圣父圣子圣灵之名
In the name of the Father,
the Son, and the Holy Spirit.
阿门
Amen.
阿门
Amen.
那桑德拉呢？
And Sandra?
她很好马上要生二胎了
She's good.
About to have her second baby.
愿主保佑男孩还是女孩啊？
Praise the Lord.
Boy or girl?
我们还不知道下周就知道了
We don't know yet.
We fixing to find out next week.
-见到她时替我向她问好
-我会的
-Well, give her my best when you see her.
-I will.
那么你为什么想见我呢？
So, why'd you want to see me?
牧师…
Well, Pastor…
你在今天的结束语中所说的宽恕
what you said in your closing prayer
today about forgiveness,
还有仁慈
showing mercy,
我知道这是基♥督♥徒应该做的
I mean, I know
it's the Christian thing to do.
我们都有做错事的时候
And we all have fallen short,
在某种程度上我们都需要被宽恕
and at some point or another,
we all deserve grace.
但对于杰夫达莫
But when it comes to Jeff Dahmer,
我无法原谅他
I can't forgive him.
即使是他的大脑可能有问题
Even though there may be
something wrong with his brain,
或是他无法自控…
or he couldn't control hisself…
我都不能
I can't.
我的内心充满了仇恨
My heart is full of hate.
Mmm.
充满了复仇
Revenge.
我以为让他在监狱里度过余生就够了
I thought him being in jail
for the rest of his life would be enough.
不是的
It's not.
我希望看到他受尽折磨
I want to see him suffer.
我甚至会梦到这样的场景
I even have nightmares about it.
我看到自己在伤害他
And I see myself hurting him.
让他痛苦
Giving him pain,
让他求饶
making him beg for mercy.
我很害怕牧师
I'm scared, Pastor.
我真的很害怕
I'm so scared.
我只是希望我能摆脱这些情绪
I just wish
I could get past these feelings.
你知道的
You know? That… that…
我不能一直活在复仇中
that… that I could
stop living in vengeance.
我希望能超脱出来
That I could get to a better place.
我也不知道
也许不是宽恕但也差不多吧？
Maybe, I don't know, maybe not forgiveness
but something close to it?
因为如果我继续被仇恨和愤怒填满
'Cause if I keep letting hate
and anger consume me…
我都要不认识自己了
I'm not gonna know myself no more.
你有开阔的心胸格伦达
You have a big heart, Glenda.
这既是福也是祸
Which can be both a blessing and a curse.
你有权去感受这些情绪
思考这些想法
And you have every right
to feel those feelings
and think those thoughts.
但我该如何停下来呢？
But how do I make them stop?
你不能
You can't.
你做不到的
-You can't.
你所能做的
就是每天祈求拥有力量和神的指引
All you can do is pray for strength
and ask for God's guidance every day.
也许再多来几次教堂吧
And perhaps come to church
a little more often.
是啊
Yeah.
Yeah.
这不是一朝一夕的事
It's not gonna happen overnight.
只是需要时间
It just takes time.
也许是一天
也许是一个月也许是一年
And then one day,
maybe a month from now, maybe a year,
直到有一天
你在某处看到杰夫瑞达莫的脸
you will see
Jeffrey Dahmer's face somewhere,
心中再无波澜
and you won't feel a thing.
-嗨爸爸
-嘿杰夫
-Hi, Dad.
-Hey, Jeff.
你好吗？
How you doing?
-很高兴见到你
-我也是
-Good to see you.
-You too.
-你看起来不错
-谢谢
-You look good.
-Thanks.
你看起来更健康了
You look healthier.
-是吗？
-是啊
-I do?
-Yeah.
Hmm.
也许是因为他们给我吃的药吧
他们给我百忧解了
Maybe it's the pills they got me on.
They gave me that Prozac.
-是吗？
-是啊
-Oh, yeah?
-Yeah.
你觉得有用吗？
What, you think it helps?
有啊我觉得能让我的情绪更稳定
Yeah, I think it helps even me out.
而且这里没有酒
我觉得我的很多问题是喝酒造成的
And there's no booze in here.
I think that was a lot of my problem.
是啊我也那么觉得
Yeah, I think so too.
你会怀念酒的滋味吗？
You miss it, the drinking?
无时无刻不在怀念
Oh, every hour of every day.
是啊
Yeah.
所以我没机会喝到
也是挺好的你知道吗？
So it's probably good
I can't get any, you know?
我在想你和莎莉
I was thinking about you and Shari.
你们应该拿着出书赚的钱去度假
You guys should, uh, maybe go
on a vacation with all that book money.
是啊那本书是啊
Oh, yeah, the book, yeah.
那本书卖♥♥得不太好杰夫
Yeah. The book didn't do so well, Jeff.
评论还不错但是…
我明白其中的原因
Uh, the reviews were good, but--
And I understand why.
我觉得有些人…
I think a lot of people…
他们觉得我想从受害者身上获利
thought that I was trying to profit
from the victims and whatnot.
你知道的
不是这样的但我能怎么办呢？
You know? It's not true.
But what are you gonna do?
可能从一开始就被诅咒了所以…
It was probably cursed
from the beginning, so…
Hm.
是啊
Yeah.
Uh…
我有一件事要告诉你
There's something I gotta tell you.
我正打算做的事
Something I'm planning on doing.
我想接受洗礼
I want to get baptized.
杰夫这真是太好了儿子
Jeff…
That's wonderful, son.
我就知道你会很高兴
I thought you'd be happy.
唯一的问题是这里没有洗礼池
Only problem is
they don't got a baptismal tank in here,
我还得找人给我洗礼
and, uh, I still got to
find somebody to baptize me.