巴瑞（2018）

When I get angry, I don't like who I become.
当我生气的时候 我不喜欢现在的样子
Can I... Can I be totally honest with you?
我能...我能说说我心底的想法吗
Barry, this is becoming a little frustrating.
巴里 你这可有点让人沮丧了
You finally open up to me, you tell me this great story
你终于打开心扉对我说了你的壮举
about shooting a sheep-fucker,
对着混♥蛋♥开枪
then all of a sudden, you don't wanna do it.
接着突然你又不干了
So you start talking about our friend, Albert.
然后开始谈论我们的朋友阿尔伯特
Then you leave that, and all of a sudden,
结果你又不干了 突然
it devolves into some kind of Braveheart bullshit.
开始谈什么勇敢的心之类的破事
For the love of God, Barry,
看在上帝的份上 巴里
would you pick one horse and ride it?
你就不能专一点吗
Now what happened with Albert?
现在告诉我阿尔伯特怎么了
Listen to me, son. There are no accidents.
听我说 小子 这可不能出岔子
You started writing this story for a reason.
你开始这一切是有原因的
The very same reason you came here tonight.
这和你今晚来这儿的目的是一样
You want to tell this story.
你想把这个故事讲出来
You need to tell this story.
你必须把这个故事讲出来
You'll look at me differently.
你会对我另眼相看的
I promise you, I will not look at you differently.
我保证不会那样做的
What happened?
到底发生了什么
Oh, my God. Albert, Albert! You're going into shock, man.
我的天呐 阿尔伯特 你会休克 兄弟
Can't see 'em! Can't see 'em!
看不见他们 看不见他们
Berkman! What are you doing?
波克曼 你要干什么
in foreign language
阿♥拉♥伯语
Fucking, you fuck!
该死 你该死
You fuck!
你个该死的
That's right, you fuck! Barry, no!
你就该死 混♥蛋♥ 巴里 不要
Barry, what the fuck are you doing?
巴里 你♥他♥妈♥疯了吗
What? He fucking shot Albert!
什么 是他开枪射的阿尔伯特
Barry, stop! It's not the guy!
巴里 停下 不是这个人
What the fuck is wrong with you? Are you fucking insane?
你♥他♥妈♥到底怎么了 疯了吗
They were across the street on the roof, you fucking psycho!
是从街对面房♥顶飞来的子弹 你个疯子
Then they sent me to a hospital in Germany.
然后他们把我送去德国的一个医院
And, uh...
还有 呃...
a family friend pulled some strings and got me discharged.
一个亲戚动用了关系让我免遭起诉
After that, I, um...
从那之后 我 嗯...
I didn't feel like I deserved a good life.
我就觉得我配不上一个完整的人生
Holy shit.
他奶奶的
Fuck!
妈了个巴子
Fu--
操...
Who else did you tell this story to?
你还跟谁讲过这个事
In class? No one. Good.
你说表演班 一个都没 幸好
You never tell that story again as long as you live,
你这辈子都不能再对任何人说这事
'cause basically, you killed somebody, and you got away with it.
因为 你这几乎就是谋杀 并且还逃避了处罚
See, this is why I didn't wanna tell you.
看吧 这就是为什么我不想告诉你
'Cause you're gonna look at me differently.
因为你将对我另眼相看
You're gonna look at me like I'm a murderer,
你会把我当成是一个杀人犯
like I'm a violent piece of shit.
如同我是一个暴♥力♥分子
Barry. Listen to me.
巴里 听我说
I have a son.
我有个儿子
I was terrible to this son.
我曾经对他很差
I was cruel, I was selfish,
我很残酷 我很自私
and there's nothing I can do to change that.
我也没办法无改变之前的事实
But I don't wanna be that guy anymore.
但我不想再那样做了
And I pray that human beings can change their nature.
我常常祈祷人类能改变他们的天性
Because if we can't,
因为如果我们不能
then you and I are in deep trouble.
那我们就会深陷麻烦
Well, how do we do that?
哦 我们怎么才能做到
I think we're doing it already.
我认为我们已经在改变了
You didn't beat that guy up, did you?
但是你并没有殴打那个人 对吗
You came here.
你来到这里
We're talking about your feelings
我们在谈论你的感觉
instead of acting out your feelings.
而不是将他掩饰起来
And as for my son,
而我儿子呢
the first time I reached out to him after years and years and years,
在很多很多很多年后 我第一次去找他
I got a big, "Fuck you, Dad!"
他冲我狠狠地说了一句'你去死吧 爸爸'
But today, today...
但是今天 今天...
he brought me strawberries.
他给我带来了草莓
Do you think I'm a bad person, Mr. Cousineau?
你觉得我是一个坏人吗 库西诺先生
I think you're deeply human.
你是一个有故事的人
You did a terrible thing,
你做过坏事
but do I think that defines you?
但是我会觉得那足够来评判你吗
No.
不
That's why I don't think you should tell
这就是我为什么让你不要说出来的原因
this story in front of the class.
在全班面前说这件事
Also, they will shit themselves.
而且 他们会被吓到失禁的
I mean, they're children.
他们还是孩子
So we're gonna be okay?
那我们会没事的吗
I promise you, we're--
我向你保证
We're gonna work through this, okay?
我们一定会有办法的
Do you trust me?
你相信我吗
Now, I bill my private classes through another loan out.
开这门私教课的时候贷了一笔款
So I'm just gonna go and get that ledger.
我得先去处理一下账务
Okay.
好了
Oh, fuck. Fuck.
握草
Aah. Shit.
妈的
It's... I...
真♥他♥妈♥
Okay, okay.
可以的
All right.
我可以的
Fuches!
福克斯
Barry? Hey, what are you doing up there?
巴里 你在上面干什么
Uh, i...
我
I can't find something.
我在找东西
Hey, I gotta tell you something. Now?
我有事想跟你说 现在吗
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
就是现在
I'll come up. I'll come up. No, wait, wait, wait!
我上去 现在就上去 等等
No...
不要啊
Fuches.
福克斯
Hey, you're not gonna believe this. What?
你一定不会相信 什么
The best thing happened. It's amazing!
有生以来最美好的事情
Barry, no. Barry, no, no. Shit, shit, no.
巴里 别进去 卧♥槽♥
No!
我的包
Fuck!
操
I know you don't want me calling. Barry...
我知道你不想让我打电♥话♥ 巴里
That's why I came here. But listen, listen. Barry, just
所以我自己来了 听我说 巴里
I told Mr. Cousineau about Korengal.
我告诉库西诺老师科伦加尔的事了
He accepted me. He said that I... What did he say?
他接受了我 对我说 说什么来着
He said I can change my nature.
他说我可以改变我的天性
Do you know what that means?
知道这意味着什么吗
I - I know.
我知道
That means that I can own all this stuff
意味着我们之前说过所有的事情
that we've been talking about.
我都可以去实现了
Barry--
巴里
All these things that I don't like about myself,
所有那些我讨厌的自己
that I can own them and they don't define me.
他们只是我的一部分 而不是全部
Like, you know, what happened in the war,
就比如 战场上发生的那些事
what we do together,
我们一起做过的那些事
even the things I don't like about myself that I regret
甚至是那些我做过但是觉得后悔的事
like killing Moss.
比如杀了莫斯
No.
别说了
I don't have to live with that regret anymore.
我再也不用带着遗憾生活了
I can move past it.
我可以向前看了
I'm not a violent piece of shit
我不是一个只懂得杀戮的人♥渣♥
is what I'm saying.
我要说的就是这个
What?
什么
Hey, Barry.
你好啊巴里
Hey, Fuches, why don't you give us a moment?
福克斯 让我们单独聊两句
Barry...
巴里
Get out.
出去
I'm sorr... I'm sorry.
对 对不起