节哀顺变（2018）

Sorry for Your Loss S02E10

Part 3 Aug. 21, 2023, 3:11 p.m.

我该躺下吗
Am I supposed to lie down?
有些人会那么做
Some people do.
这是要测试…
Is it like a test to
我会躺着想象在跟佛洛伊德说话
get on your back like you're talking to Freud
还是像正常人一样坐着吗
or sit like a normal person?
这不是测试
It's not a test.
我哥哥总是想要我去做心理治疗
My brother was always trying to get me to go to therapy
解决我和父母之间的问题
to work out my issues with our parents.
所以这很讽刺
So it's ironic, you know.
我终于来了
Like, I'm finally here
但却是要解决我跟他之间的问题
to work out my...with him.
我刚说「讽刺」用对了吗
Am I using 'ironic' in the right way?
我听说艾拉妮丝莫莉塞特
I heard somewhere that all the examples
那首歌♥里的用法都是错的
in that Alanis Morissette song are wrong.
所以现在我每次说到这个词
So now, every time I say it,
都觉得我跟她一样都用错了
I think that I use it rong like she did.
对不起
I'm sorry.
我觉得没什么问题
I think it's right enough.
好
Cool.
好吧
Okay.
丹尼
So, Danny,
告诉我
tell me...
你想谈什么
what would you like to talk about?
我觉得…
I think...
如果我当时不要那样
if I had been a different person...
我哥哥就不会死了
My brother would still be alive.
她以为她是谁
I mean, who does she think she is?
那是我跟我老公的婚姻
That was my relationship with my husband.
是我们的过去
That's what we had.
听着
I mean, look.
你知道我是过来人
You know I've been there.
不，你不能算是过来人
No, you've kind of been there.
瑞安爱上另一个男人
Ryan fell for this dude,
你们一起度过难关，然后结婚
and then you guys worked through it and then you got married.
麦特爱上另一个女人，然后他死了
Matt fell for this woman, and then he died.
好吧，我算是有经验
Okay, I've kind of been there.
你宁愿跟没经验的人
Would you rather be talking to someone
聊这些事吗
who hasn't been there at all?
我讨厌她
I just hate her.
我恨他，我…
I hate him. I...
我恨我自己
I hate myself.
我恨所有人
I hate everyone.
我很恨我自己
I hate myself so much!
别说了，你已经尽力了，你是好人
Stop. You're a good person who is doing her best.
我觉得我不再是好人了
I don't think I'm a good person anymore.
我很自私
I'm selfish.
我是个骗子
I'm a liar.
我伤害别人
I hurt people.
每个人都会伤害别人
Oh, everybody hurts people.
没人会像我伤害丹尼那样伤害别人
No one hurts people the way I hurt Danny.
他试着远离我，但我不准他那么做
He tried to stay away from me, and I wouldn't let him.
我执意要进入他的生活
I forced myself into his life,
因为我需要他爱我
because I needed him to love me.
我是个禽兽
Oh, I'm a monster.
你不是禽兽
Hey. You're not a monster.
你只是犯了错
You just made a mistake.
我觉得麦特过世时
I think when Matt died,
带走了一部分的我
he took a piece of me,
最好的部分…也许是唯一好的部分
the best part... maybe the only good part...
我不知道要怎么找回来
and I don't know how to get it back.
我已经认不得现在的自己了
I don't recognize this person I've become.
我只知道…
I just know
我恨她
that I hate her.
你今天过得如何
How was your day?
你很清楚，你大半时间都在旁边
You know how my day was. You saw me for half of it.
好，那你说说我不在旁边时的情况
Okay, so tell me about the other half I didn't see you for.
今天是星期三
You know, it's Wednesday.
孩子们仍不在乎哈定总统…
Kids still don't care about President Harding
茶壶山丑闻或1923年发生的任何事
or the Teapot Dome Scandal or anything else that happened in 1923.
我懂，因为我也不在乎
I get it, 'cause I don't care either.
你以为要他们读一章美国史教科书
You think it's hard getting them to read a chapter
是一件很难的事
of 'The American Pageant' textbook.
试试《无比敌》吧
Try 'Moby Dick.'
我是说…　　我试过了
-I mean... -Tried it.
老实说，如果你要大家读你的书
To be fair, if you want people to read your book,
也许别花100页讨论鲸脂
maybe don't spend 100 pages on whale blubber?
是80页，但没关系，好
It's, like, 80, but okay. Okay.
我不敢相信你买♥♥了莎莎酱
I can't believe you actually bought salsa.
我教你怎么做就好了
I need to teach you how to make it.
西红柿和食物处理机
Tomatoes and a food processor.
只要五分钟
It takes, like, 5 minutes.
我喜欢店里卖♥♥的口味
I like the store-bought tastes.
我还没离开
I'm still here.
我还没离开
I'm still here.
你还好吗
You okay?
我不知道
I don't know.
怎么了
What's going on?
这是你的事，你跟她说吧
This is your thing. You tell her.
不，这不是我的事
No, this is not my thing.
我这么做是为了我们所有人
I'm doing this for all of us.
你要做什么
What are you doing?
我要把房♥子卖♥♥了
I'm selling the house.
什么
What?
自从我回到家
Well, I ever since I got home, I just...
我还是觉得被困住了
I still feel so trapped.
这栋房♥子就像一个笼
This house just feels like a cage.
我要摆脱它
I need to get rid of it.
我需要自♥由♥
I need to get free.
但如果把房♥子卖♥♥了，你要住哪里
But if you get rid of the house, where are you gonna live?
我不知道
I don't know.
也许我会盖间300呎的迷你屋
Maybe I'll build a 300-foot tiny home.
也许我会租间民宿
Maybe I'll get an Airbnb
夏天去法国住
and go and live in France for the summer
秋天再回来
and come back in the fall.
也许不会那么做
And maybe I won't.
妈，你是要我们告诉你
Look, Mom, do you want us to tell you
我们觉得你又崩溃了？
if we think you're having another breakdown?
不，因为我没有崩溃
No...because I'm not having a breakdown.
而是想通了
I'm having a breakthrough,
这都要感谢你们
and it's because of you 2.
我们？
Us?
对…听着，我离开以后
Yes...Look, I left, and you both...
你们两个冒险做了一些…
you have taken chances and done things
我从没想过你们能做到的事
that I never would have imagined that you could do.
我以你们为荣，不只如此
I'm so proud of you, and I'm more than proud.
我受到你们的启发
I'm inspired by you.
我以为这应该是我们全家
I just thought that this would be a decision
一起做的决定
that we would make as a family.
但这是你做的决定
But you made this call,
所以我们并没有站在同一阵线
so it's you over there and us over here.
这是我的房♥子
It's my house,
而且我仍是家长
and I am still the parent.
所以我有权决定
So I get to decide.
听着，我…
Look, I...
建立了这个家，但从未让你们离开
I built a nest, and I never really let you leave.
我太害怕自己一个人
I was too afraid of being alone.
所以我一直不放手让你们长大
So I never let you grow all the way up.
我现在要摆脱这个家
So I'm getting rid of the nest. It...
这么做是对的
it's the right thing...
对我们所有人都好
for all of us.