节哀顺变（2018）

Sorry for Your Loss S02E08

Part 2 Aug. 21, 2023, 3:10 p.m.

Come on. Play hooky with me.
谢谢你
Thank you.
跟我说说那个关于麦特的梦
Tell me about your Matt dream.
我们不需要谈那个梦
We don't have to talk about it.
我想谈
Well, I want to.
好吧
Okay.
他…
Well, he...
他看着窗外
He was looking out a window.
我走向他
And I walked up to him.
他…
He was...
他就在那里
I mean, he was there.
他就在我面前，而我…
He was just right in front of me, and I...
我有一种…
I had this feeling of...
被爱和关心的感觉
being loved and taken care of.
抱歉，我不该告诉你吗
Sorry, should I not have told you?
不，是我要你说的，只是…
No, I asked you to. It's just...
我也一直梦到麦特
I've been dreaming about Matt too.
不好的梦
Not good dreams.
梦里发生了什么事
What happens in them?
小蕾？
Leigh?
这是你家？
This is your house?
是我妈的，但她…
It's my mom's, but she's...
不重要了
It's not important.
我们少装一个桌脚吗
Are we missing a leg?
怎么会？这里跟衣柜一样大
How? This place is the size of a closet.
不知道，或许他们只给你三个桌脚
I don't know. Maybe they just gave you 3 by accident.
一定就在附近
It's gotta be around here somewhere.
我正在找
Well, I'm looking.
如果你想谈谈…
You know, if you do ever wanna talk about
那些不好的梦
your not-good dreams,
我在大学读过卡尔荣格的理论
I did take a class in college on Carl Jung,
所以我算是梦境分♥析♥专家
so I'm kind of like an expert at dream analysis.
不用了，谢谢
I'm good, thanks.
好吧
Okay.
要是你改变心意
Well, if you change your mind,
没有人比我更了解你的经历
no one knows what you're going through more than me.
我不同意
I don't think that's true.
什么意思
What do you mean?
我们经历的事并不一样，小蕾
We're not going through the same thing, Leigh.
没关系
That's okay.
你眼里的麦特跟我不一样
You see Matt differently than I do.
我眼里的麦特是什么模样
How do I see Matt?
他一辈子都披着英雄披风
Like he went through life wearing a superhero cape.
那你眼里的他又是怎样的
How do you see him?
不会让每个人觉得被爱与被关心
Not as the Matt that made everyone feel loved and cared for,
这是肯定的
that's for sure.
但他就是如此　　面对现实吧
-But he did. -Come on, let's be real.
他整天郁郁寡欢，把大家都拖下水
He was a depressed mess, who brought everyone down with him.
才不是那样
That is...that's just not true.
你很清楚那是真的
You know damn well that's true.
他有他的问题要处理，大家都有
He had his stuff to deal with, but we all have our stuff.
但那根本不是重点，对吧
But that's just not what this is about, is it?
那重点是什么？小蕾
What's this about then, Leigh?
你不需要说麦特的坏话
You don't have to be sh**ty about Matt
才能够安心跟我在一起
to feel okay about being with me.
我这样说麦特是因为他是个坏人
I'm being this way about Matt, because he was sh**ty.
不，才不是，他是最棒的
No, he wasn't! He was the greatest.
我是说，他…
I mean, he...
他创造了许多我生命中最棒的时刻
he made so many days the best days of my life.
例如…
Like, ex...
我们相遇的那晚
explain the night we met.
他求婚的那天
Explain the day he proposed.
还有我们去新奥尔良的那次
Like, explain New Orleans.
新奥尔良？　　天啊
-New Orleans? -Oh, my God.
我不需要在你面前替麦特辩护
I don't have to justify Matt to you.
好，我要…我回家了
Okay, I'm gonna... I'm just gonna go home.
茱尔丝想一起吃晚餐
Jules wants to have dinner.
所以我…
So I'll just...
总算能准时一次了
I'll be on time for once.
茱尔丝为什么想一起吃晚餐
Why does Jules wanna have dinner?
不知道，或许因为她是我妹
I don't know. Maybe because she is my sister
她喜欢我
and she likes me.
随便你，我要找到那个破桌脚
Whatever, I gotta find that stupid table leg.
好吧
Okay.
好吧
Okay.
请来点鼓声
Drumroll, please.
什么样的鼓声
What kind of a drumroll?
标准的鼓声
A standard drumroll.
好吧，因为我只会这种
Good, 'cause that's the only thing I can do.
新奥尔良
New Orleans.
这是今晚的票
This ticket's for tonight.
是啊，我周一没有课
Yeah, you know, I don't have school Monday,
我想我们可以在新奥尔良待48小时
so I thought we could do 48 hours in NOLA.
这是怎么回事
What's happening right now?
我不知道，我只是…
Well, I don't know. I just...
我觉得我们最近的频率不太相同
Well, I just kind of feel like we've been on different wavelengths lately.
是啊
Yeah.
我也有这种感觉
I've felt that too.
我不希望再这样下去
I don't want things to keep going the way they've been going.
所以要去新奥尔良？
So, New Orleans?
这就像去法国，但不用带护照
It's like going to France without a passport.
当你走在街上
Yeah, when you walk down the streets,
音乐声会从店家大门传出来
music spills out of open doors,
而且每天至少会有一场巡游
and there's at least one parade every day.
你讨厌巡游　　好，我们避开巡游
-You hate parades. -Okay, so we dodge the parades
我们就边散步边聊天
and we just walk and talk.
你有很多舞曲
You have a lot of dance music.
是啊，舞蹈老师就是这样
Yeah, that's what happens when you teach a dance class...
该说前老师，毕竟我现在行动不便
or did, when I could move without crutches.
等等，这是什么
Wait. What's this?
(市场要往哪里走)
(Which way to the market?)
(越南语)
(Speaking Vietnamese)
我之前在学一些越南语
I was trying to learn some Vietnamese.
很棒
Right on.
是，我的原生家庭来自越南
Yeah. My birth family's from Vietnam.
你回去过越南吗
Have you ever been back to visit?
我想过，但后来妈离开
I was thinking about it before Mom left
我也忙着经营舞蹈教室
and the studio took over my life.
但…其实我不确定自己是否准备好
But...honestly, I don't know if I'm ready for
面对在那里找到或找不到的东西
what I'd find there or not find.
你不要小看自己的应付能力
Well, you may surprise yourself with what you can handle.
我从没想过我能熬过牢狱生涯
I mean, I never thought I'd make it through prison.
你那么说，我以为你在开玩笑…
The way you said that, I thought it was a joke, but it...
原来不是
was not.
想知道我为什么坐监吗
Do you wanna know why I was in prison?
除非你想告诉我
Only if you wanna tell me.
因为袭击罪
It was for assault.
我没有正面处理天主教和家里的事
I hadn't really dealt with any of my Catholic and family stuff.
我当时总是满腔愤怒
I was just holding onto a lot of anger at the time.
我去了一间同志酒吧
I was at a gay bar.
有个直男走进来坐下，不肯离开
Straight guy walked in, sat down, he wouldn't leave.
然后…
And...
我不知道，我以为他在笑我
I don't know. I thought he laughed at me.
也许是，也许不是
Maybe he did, maybe he didn't, I don't...
那不重要
doesn't really matter, but...
但我用啤酒瓶打了他
I hit him with a beer bottle.
他的头撞到地上
He knocked his head on the ground,
昏迷了好几天
and...he was in a coma for a couple of days.
是啊，那件事…
Yeah, it...
我后来意识到问题其实不在他身上
it took me a while to realize that it wasn't really about him.
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