104号房间

Room 104 S03E07

Part 4 Nov. 16, 2019, 12:20 p.m.

And if you really love it, you're gonna be inherently consistent
因为你每天都想去做
because you're gonna want to do it each day.
结果会慢慢变化
And the results are gonna vary,
但是过程才是王道坚持过程
but process is king‐‐ stay in the process.
坚持过程
Stay in the process.
灵感可不会挑着时间来
Creativity doesn't know what time it is.
所以我们想睡在这里
That's why we want to sleep here.
我在大学里会在半夜突然醒来
I get up in the middle of the night and work on a collage
因为灵感力随时都会出现
'cause creativity doesn't know what time it is.
来吧来一笔
Go ahead, hit it.
-我写了 -不你想的话再来一笔
‐ I did. ‐ No, hit it again if you want.
我知道你很想留下印记来吧
I know you're dying to make a mark on it. Go ahead.
这些很单调
These are pretty singular,
但是他昨晚写上了"好梦"
but he put on this "Sweet Dreams" Last night...
因为这就在墙上
Because it was on the wall.
我就觉得"这真是太棒了"
and I was like, "That's awesome."
有个好心员工
Somebody in the crew was kind enough
在墙上写了"好梦"
to put "Sweet Dreams" On the wall
我看到了我就说"画上去"
and I saw it and I said, "Put it in the piece."
-这是马的名字 -我们不知道是谁
‐ It's the name of the horse. ‐ We don't know who it is,
但不管是谁我们爱你很点睛
but whoever it is, we love you. It works.
我刚刚在他的画上留了点♥金♥色的痕迹
And I made a little gold mark on his just now.
他想留下痕迹
He wants to, like, make marks,
我没有意见
I don't have a problem with it.
我们做了这个格罗特雅恩
Like, we did this thing, the Grotjahn thing,
我就说"来吧"
and I said, "Just go hit it,"
于是他就画了这个我也不知道是什么
and he just did this little friggin' whatever‐it‐is,
我觉得很完美
and I think it's perfect.
我觉得这种合作
I think the collaboration, too,
也有这个房♥间的效果
is, like, executing the tone of the room too,
配合这个墙壁简直是浑然一体
does this wall come together as a seamless whole?
我创造了很多残局
I uh, caused a lot of wreckage
很多痛苦
and a lot of pain
很多混乱
and a lot of chaos.
我还有进步空间
And I'm still a work in progress, you know,
我还是个初学者
I'm still really new to this.
但是这一年来改变了很多
But a lot's changed over the course of the year
因为我投入了很多心血
because I put in some intense work
我一直在努力戒瘾
and I've been trying to get‐‐ get sober
已经保持了很久清醒状态了
and get healthy for a long time.
我对我父亲做出的补偿
And my living amends to my dad
就是安抚他的心
is to grant him peace of mind.
这是要努力一辈子的工作
It's a lifetime of work,
我要好好练习
and it's something I get to practice‐‐
我现在有机会每天进行练习
I have the opportunity to practice each day.
我要学习更加耐心包容
I had to, like, learn about patience, acceptance,
这种事很考验自己
those things that really test you.
说爱一个人很简单
You say you love somebody, you say whatever,
但是当你实际做起来
but until you're in that arena
和阻碍你的怪兽扭打起来
and you're wrestling with those beasts and stuff,
你才知道你到底是个怎样的人
that's where you find out where your character's at.
到了最后
You know, at the end of the day,
是他需要帮助他病了
he's someone that needs help, he's sick.
我要想办法和他产生纽带
I gotta figure out a way to have a relationship,
但要有边界
but have a boundary,
我能够保护我自己照顾我自己
that I can protect myself and take care of myself
以及我的妻子和家人
and my wife and my family.
也许我做这件事有部分原因是
You know, maybe part of the thing about doing this thing
我希望有人看了后会觉得
is that I'm hoping, when somebody sees this,
没错的确有很多痛苦
is that yeah, there's a lot of pain,
有很多伤疤有很多伤口
there's a lot of scars, there's a lot of wounding,
但是也有治愈也有
but you know, there is healing and there is‐‐
隧♥道♥的尽头也有光明
there's a light at the end of the tunnel.
但是你还是要做好你该做的事过好你的生活
But you gotta do the work, you gotta do the time.
你那天告诉我你重新信任我了...
When you told me the other day that you trusted me again...
这很重要真的很重要
was huge... that was huge.
-但你要争取 -我知道
‐ Yeah, but you had to earn it. ‐ Yeah, I know.
你要争取
You had to earn it.
你争取到了
And you have.
信任是任何感情关系的基础
You know, trust is a key component of any relationship.
你要是没有信任就无法坦诚
You don't have trust, man, you don't have honesty,
你就没有原则没有基石
you don't have the tenets, you don't have the foundation,
你什么都没有
you don't have anything.
所以我才这么说
That's what I'm saying, you know,
你我之间曾经的那些事
some of the stuff that went on between you and I,
我...的确很糟糕
I just... it was hard shit.
我知道人生中的一切都是有其存在的原因
And... And I know that everything happens in life for a reason,
但是我们有过很多痛苦
but... there was a lot of pain there.
但是相信你是...
But you know, trusting you is...
-谢谢你 -不客气爸爸
‐ Thank you. ‐ You're welcome, Papa.
不真的谢谢
No, really, fuckin' thanks.
我不会再这段过程中哭的
I'm not gonna fuckin' cry through the whole fuckin' thing.
该死
Fuck.
说真的该死
Seriously. Shit.
只为了爱答应的原则
For it is love and love alone, the rules for aye.