教师情事（2020）

A Teacher S01E10

Part 3 Dec. 30, 2020, 10:48 a.m.

He's 17 now.
跟我当年一样大
Same age I was.
他看上去真♥他♥妈♥年轻
He looks so fucking young.
我当时只是个孩子克莱尔
I was just a kid, Claire.
我知道我知道
I know. I know.
如今我身为人母
And now being a mother,
知道我做了那事我
knowing I did that, I...
我自己也无法理解
I cannot understand it myself.
我花了很长时间才知道该如何接受这事
It's taken me so long to figure out how to live with that.
每天我
Every day, I...
都会想我当时本该怎么做
think about what I should have done differently.
-我只希望你没事 -我的天
- I just want you to be okay. - Oh, my God.
你在说笑对吗
You're kidding, right?
你今天叫我来
You called me here today
是因为你受够了负罪感
because you're sick of feeling guilty.
我看过你
I've seen you.
我看过你的照片
You know, I've seen your photos,
你完美的家庭和你的大房♥子
your perfect family and your big house.
我的生活并不完美
My life is not perfect.
没错我很幸运
Yeah, sure, I got lucky.
我找到了一个老公
I--I found a husband who,
他不像别人那样评判我
for reasons I will never understand,
什么原因我永远也无法明白但是
doesn't judge me the way other people do, but, like...
我找不到工作
I can't get a job.
我不能参加教师家长联合会
I can't go to PTA meetings.
其他家长看我的样子
The way other parents look at me--
搜索一下就会知道
it is a--a Google search away.
只需一次点击就能毁掉我
I am one click away from ruin.
那感觉糟透了
It's hell.
你还在把自己当成这事的主角
You're still making this about you.
别走等等埃里克拜托
No, wait. Eric, please.
我和这事之间永远不会只差一次点击克莱尔
I will never be just one click away from this, Claire.
我必须背负着这事生活一辈子
I have to live with this forever.
你也一样
So do you.