教师情事（2020）

A Teacher S01E09

Part 3 Dec. 30, 2020, 10:48 a.m.

pretty obvious.
没有我是说...
No, no, I mean...
她们只是真的想让我知道
They just really wanted me to know
你完成了200个小时的瑜伽练习
that you've completed 200 hours of yoga training.
对不起
I'm sorry.
-怎么了吗 -我...
‐ W‐wha‐‐what happened? ‐ I'm‐‐
-是我哪里没... -不是的你很好
‐ I don't know what‐‐ ‐ It's okay, you're fine.
-是我说错话了吗 -没有
‐ Did I say something? ‐ No, I'm...
我不是...
I'm not, uh...
太尴尬了
This is so embarrassing.
你还好吗
You all right?
-你没事吧 -我不会和你勾搭在一起的
‐ Hey, are you‐‐ ‐ I'm not gonna hook up with you.
我
I'm‐‐
你年纪太小了而我刚刚...
You're way too young, and I just‐‐
我刚刚结束了一段长♥期♥的恋爱关系
I just got out of a long‐term thing.
五年
Five years.
真的很艰难
It's been really hard.
是吗
Yeah?
对我的朋友们也知道
Yeah, and my friends know it has.
她们只是不想听我说这些
They just don't wanna hear about it.
她们只想... 修复我好像性就能修复一样
They just wanna... fix me, as if sex could fix me.
所以我不能
So I‐I can't really...
我不能跟她们说这件事
I can't really talk to them about it
我也不能跟任何人说
and I can't really talk to anybody about it.
没人理解
No one understands.
我说不好我只是觉得好困惑
I don't know, I just feel so confused.
当我们一开始在一起的时候
When we first were together...
我疯狂地爱着他甚至感觉不舒服
I was so madly in love with him. I felt...sick.
但他让我受尽折磨
But he put me through the wringer.
现在我摆脱了我可以...
And now that I'm out of it, I can...
我可以看到以前我是多么不开心
I can see how unhappy I was.
我不想再有这样的感受了
I don't wanna feel this way anymore.
克莱尔
Claire?
克莱尔
Claire.
克莱尔
Claire.
跟我说说怎么了
Talk to me. What is it?
-克莱尔 -别再试图帮我了
- Claire. ‐ Stop trying to help me!
我只是想公正地对待你
I'm just... tryin' to do right by ya.
我都没法直视你
I can't even look at you.
老好人这一套
This whole good man act?
你知道我小时候经常去翻我们的垃圾吗
You know I used to go through our trash when I was a kid?
我经常去数有多少空瓶子
I used to count the number of empties
确保你不会死掉
to make sure you weren't gonna die.
我当时十岁有时甚至恐惧地上♥床♥
I was ten years old, and I would get into bed terrified,
想着
thinking...
也许我漏掉了什么
you know, maybe I missed a cue or something
当我醒来时你就不在了
and that when I woke up, you'd be gone.
怎么现在我就应该看你生龙活虎吗
What, now I'm supposed to watch you thrive?
知道你能击败它
Knowing that‐‐ that you could beat it.
你只是不能为我做到而已
You just couldn't do it for me?
克莱尔我也希望能时光倒流
Claire, I wish I could go back.
我愿意付出一切
I mean, I'd give anything to be able to.
我已经花了一整辈子
I have spent my entire life
逃离你
running from you,
想要觉得安全
trying to feel safe.
我...
I‐‐I've‐‐
想要帮助那些像我一样的孩子们
wanted to help kids who were like me
给他们所需要的
and give them what they‐‐
我从没得到的东西
what I never got.
而不知怎的
And somehow, I've‐‐
我伤害了所有人搞砸了一切
I've hurt everyone and I've fucked everything up,
我也不知道要如何弥补
and I don't know how to fix it.
我真是个大烂人
I'm such a fucking horrible person.
你会找到办法
You are gonna find a way
继续前行的我保证
to keep goin', I promise you.
我不想待在这儿
I don't wanna be here.
所有人都想让我走我真的只想
Everybody wants me gone. I just wanna be fucking...
消失
gone.
我知道
I know.
我知道那种感觉好吗
I know it feels that way, okay?
但你得留下
But you gotta stay.
你得留下
You gotta stay.
必须得留下
You gotta.
出什么事了
What's wrong?
不我只是
No, uh...yeah, I‐I just...
想着回家一趟
thought I'd come home.
来过周末
You know, for the weekend.
或者待得更久一点
Or maybe longer.
我需要帮助妈
I need help, Mom.
我需要帮助
I need help.
我知道
I know.
很高兴你回家了
I'm glad you came home.