泰布机密（2015）

that never heard of Tab H unter.
现在，一个月最好的时间是什么时候
Now, what is the best time of the month
让女人怀孕?
for a woman to conceive?
我感觉像一张新的老面孔或一张新的老面孔。
L feel like a new old face or an old new face.
所以我要试着从头再来。
So l ' m getting my toe in the door to start all over again.
非常令人兴奋
It's very exciting
泰布对自己的事业很认真。
Tab was serious about his career.
但他从来没把自己当回事。
But he never took himself that seriously.
DR. ERNO: Tab，你是做什么工作的?
DR. ERNO: Tab, what do you do for a living?
厄诺，我是好莱坞影星，
Well , Erno, l ' m a Hollywood movie star,
我演了40多部电影，住在比佛利山庄。
and l 've been in over 40 films, and l lived in Beverly H ills.
听起来很令人兴奋。
That sounds exciting .
他觉得自己很有趣。
He found himself amusing .
当你对自己有幽默感时，
When you have a sense of humor about yourself,
人们会以另一种方式欣赏你。
people appreciate you in another way.
我想再次和神性合作。
L wanted to work with Divine again.
我萌生了拍一部西部喜剧的想法。
L had come up with the idea of doing a western comedy.
那首歌♥叫《尘埃中的欲望》
It was called " Lust in the Dust. "
解说员:Tab H hunter是那个陌生人。
ANNOuNCER: Tab H unter is the stranger.
神是罗斯·瓦尔迪兹。
And Divine is Rosy valdez.
来拿吧。
Come and get it.
我尽我所能把石头都翻了一遍
L turned over every stone l possibly
能让《尘中情欲》继续下去
could trying to get " Lust in the Dust" going forward .
我第一次见到塔布本人
The first time l saw Tab in person
是他走进我办公室的时候吗
was when he walked into my office
来福克斯电视台宣传《尘中情欲》
at Fox to pitch " Lust in the Dust. "
塔布仍然有那种明星气质。
Tab still had that star quality.
我跟艾伦提了这个项目。
And l mentioned the project to Allan.
他立刻想到了这个点子，说，这主意太棒了。
And he hit on it right away and said , what a wonderful idea.
泰布离开会议后，我想，是的，
Once Tab left the meeting , l thought, yeah,
《尘埃中的欲望》可能会奏效。
" Lust in the Dust" could work.
我立刻就知道我可以信任他。
L knew l could trust him almost immediately.
我发现艾伦很有魅力，很聪明，
L found Allan very attractive, very bright,
我想花更多时间和他在一起。
and l wanted to spend more time with him .
塔布开始给我打电♥话♥。
Tab started calling me.
一开始我以为只是
And l thought initially it was just
是《尘埃中的欲望》的续集，但它不止于此。
a follow up about " Lust in the Dust, " but it went beyond that.
他比我大30岁，而我。
Tab was 30 years older and l was.
我23岁。
L was 23.
塔布53岁。
Tabb was 53.
但一旦我们联♥系♥上了，我就做不到
But once we did connect, l couldn 't
想象一下我们不在一起。
imagine us not being together.
然后我们的关系发展得越深，
And then the more our personal relationship grew,
我就越下定决心要把电影拍完。
the more l was determ ined to get that movie done.
我试着在福克斯做这件事，结果在那里
L tried to get it going at Fox, and there
有一点兴趣，但是他们
was a little bit of interest, but they
最终还是放弃了。
ultimately passed on it.
塔布说我应该参与制♥作♥这个。
Tab said to me l should get involved and produce this.
那就意味着我得辞掉我稳定的工作
Well , that would mean having to leave my secure job
我在福克斯工作过
at Fox, which l did.
人们说我离开摄影棚是在冒很大的风险。
People told me l was taking a big risk leaving the studio.
但我有预感，我的未来会
But l had a hunch that my future would
和Tab在一起会更好，所以我离开了。
be better with Tab, so l left.
他一手为那部电影筹集了全部资金。
He single-handedly raised all the money for that film .
你完全搞错了，亲爱的。
You got it all wrong , honey.
你一辈子都很小气。
You 've been cheap all your life.
便宜吗?
Cheap?
L是神的妹妹。
L was the sister of Divine.
这家具很便宜。
This furniture is cheap.
我看起来像个变装皇后?
L looked like a drag queen , you know?
(笑)我想这就是我的想法。
(LAuGH l NG) l think that was the idea.
我和Tab H hunter的爱情戏，我们在洗澡。
My love scene with Tab H unter-- we were in a shower.
味道很好。
It was delicious.
我出演的第一部电影是《尘中情欲》。
The first film l ever appeared in was " Lust in the Dust. "
特别是那个场景，有一种真正的轻浮感和乐趣
That set, in particular, had a real sense of frivolity and fun
关于它。
about it.
我记得我被塔布的自然主义打动了
And l remember being struck by Tab' s naturalism
他所做的每件事都是那么轻松。
and how effortlessly everything he was doing was com ing across.
胜利从一个人转移到另一个人。
Victory shifts from man to man .
《申命记》吗?
Deuteronomy?
荷马。
Homer.
每个人都有点小题大做。
Everybody was sort of playing it larger than life.
《尘埃中的欲望》很受欢迎，
" Lust in the Dust" was well received ,
当然，这也为我们做其他事情打开了大门。
and it certainly opened doors for us to do other things.
艾伦•格拉泽:Tab绝对有它的价值。
ALLAN GLAsER: Tab definitely had a value.
因为塔布的关系，我有很多会面。
L got a lot of meetings just because Tab was attached .
我们在做这些独♥立♥的项目，
We were doing these independent projects,
塔布的名气帮我筹到了资金。
and Tab' s celebrity helped me raise the financing .
对我们来说，这是一段非常富有成效的时光。
It was a very productive time for us.
对我来说，这是一个挑战，让它工作，我喜欢。
For me, it was a challenge to make it work, which l enjoyed .
但Tab就不是这样了。
But not so m uch for Tab.
他没有找到同样的兴奋
He didn 't find that same excitement
这是我在进行这些项目时发现的。
that l found in trying to get these projects going .
我从来没怎么注意过
Well , l never paid a lot of attention what
发生在好莱坞。
was happening in Hollywood .
我让艾伦做这些是因为他
L let Allan do all of that because he
真的很擅长。
was really good at it.
你好吗？
How are you?
Tab H猎人。
Tab H unter.
这个时候，泰布已经不太愿意继续演戏了。
By this time, Tab wasn 't too happy to continue acting .
塔布仍然有工作机会，但他做了90%的事情
Tab was still getting offers, but he turned 90o%c of everything
他被拒绝了。
he was offered down .
人们出来了，这是他们的选择，
People were coming out, and that was their choice to do so,
我尊重这一点。
and l respect that.
就我个人而言，我不想让我的性取向来定义我是谁。
Personally, l didn 't want my sexuality to define who l was.
我只是没说。
L just didn 't talk about.
这不是我的舒适区。
It's not my comfort zone.
我被直截了当地问到我的性取向。
L was point-blank asked about my sexuality.
躲在衣柜里不是很困难吗?
Wasn 't it difficult to be in a closet?
有些媒体偶尔会越过这个界限，
Some of the press occasionally would cross that boundary,
我有权在那里写这句话，
l ' m entitled to have that line there,
如果我不想和你分享，我就不会。
and if l don 't want to share that with you , l won 't.
我想这可能意味着我终于成功了。
L think it probably means l finally made it.
我是说，你不可能成为明星而不被传出同性恋的谣言
L mean , you can 't be a star without having a gay rumor out
好了，你能吗?(笑声)
there, can you? (LAuGH l NG)
在某些方面，商业是
l n some respects, the business is
还是像50年代的样子。
still like it was in the ' 50s.
同性恋可能更容易被社会接受。
It may be a lot more socially acceptable to be gay.
但我知道有几个人非常
But l know several people who are very
这个行业的杰出人士认为，也许是合理的，
prominent in this industry who feel, perhaps legitimately,
如果他们出来了，就会影响票房♥吸引力。
that if they came out it would affect their box office appeal .
这么说吧，伙计们，吉列剃须刀能变戏法。
Let's put it this way, fellas, a Gillette shave turns a trick.
她是全美国女人的梦中情人
For someone who is the fantasy for women all across America
这个世界，在公众面前站出来说，
and the world , to come out in the public and say,
我是同性恋，希望扮演男主角是一个问题。
l ' m gay and expect to play leading men is an issue.
这仍然很棘手。
It's still tricky.
每个有秘密的演员，比如同性恋，
Every actor who has a secret, like being gay,
我们有一部分人害怕好莱坞。
there's a part of us that are afraid of Hollywood .
我们害怕做真正的自己。
We' re afraid to be who we are com pletely.
那是一种艰难的生活。
That' s a hard life to lead.
在公众视野里呆了几十年后，我想要的一切
After decades of being in the public eye, all l wanted
是我的隐私。
was my privacy.
为了达到这个目的，我就永远地退出了。
L n order to achieve that, l just withdrew from it all for good .
我的一生很短暂。
My life had been very transient.
我从没想过要安定下来。
L never thought of settling down .
但后来艾伦走进了我的生活
But then Allan came into my life and just
开启了全新的视野。
opened up whole new vistas.
我们是彼此的一部分
We' re so much of a part of each other
因为我们在一起太久了。
now because we have been together for so long .
这只是其中一件事。
And it's just one of those things.
它的工作原理。