JT·莱罗伊（2018）

靠
Oh, fuck.
这就是他妈的政♥治♥迫♥害♥
This is a fucking witch hunt.
你想喝杯茶吗
Do you... you want a tea?
或者 我可以 我可以给你做♥鸡♥蛋之类的
Or I can... I can make you eggs or something.
不 我不能吃任何东西 我没事
No, I... I can't eat anything. I'm okay.
哦 天哪
Oh, my God.
宝贝
Babe.
他们知道我是谁了
They know who I am now.
我很惭愧
I'm so ashamed.
我只是想他妈的消失
I just wanna fucking disappear.
你还好吗
How are you holding up?
我的意思是 我以为自己会觉得解脱了
I mean, I figured I'd feel some kind of relief...
但我有点不知所措
but I'm kind of at a loss.
我只是 就像
I just, like...
-是的 -是的
- At a loss. - Yeah.
宝贝
Babyhead...
这是这本书的结尾
it's the fucking end of the book.
就像 莎拉 的结尾
It's like the end of "Sarah."
JT就像在树林里裸奔
JT's like running naked through the woods.
他们拿着干草叉
They have pitchforks.
他们追在他后面
They're fucking after him.
很生气 因为他实际上是个男孩
Mad 'cause he's actually a boy.
你可以写一个不同的结尾
You could have written a different ending.
必须是那个结局
Had to be that ending.
这是一个伟大的结局
It's a great fuckin' ending.
他们认为这个作品是骗人的
They think that the work is fraudulent.
这不是骗局 不是欺诈
You know, this ain't a hoax, this ain't fraud.
书是真实的
The books are real.
喂
Hello?
喂
Hello?
言归正传 让我们热烈欢迎
Without further ado, let's give a warm welcome
劳拉 艾伯特
to Laura Albert.
汤姆 韦茨
Tom Waits...
想要做一个采访
wanted to do an interview
关于JT莱罗伊的 浮华世界
with JT LeRoy for "Vanity Fair."
JT拒绝了
JT declined...
因为他是出了名的害羞
because he was notoriously shy.
JT害羞的原因
One of the reasons JT...
是因为
was so shy...
根本不存在JT这个人
is JT didn't have a body.
JT只是一个化身
JT was an avatar.
我们创造了这个角色
We are given this persona,
然后我们找到了替身
and then we are given this body,
而且没有任何人向我们承诺
and there's no promise from whomever made us...
要将两者同步
that the two will be in sync.
但是我觉的 我们可以陷入
A... and hey, I say we can be in the misery...
将这两者同步的痛苦中
of trying to get them to match up...
或者我们可以创造自己的世界
or we can create our own world.
言归正传
Let me take you back.
我出生在福利院
I was in a group home,
这让我身处痛苦之中
I'm in my pain,
到处都是痛苦
and there's pain all around.
我在寻找方法
And I'm... I'm looking for the tools...
为了让其他也感觉到这种痛苦的人
for other people to feel that pain,
能够理解
to understand it.
但我不能成为JT
And I can't be in this body, you know.
因为我最害怕的是
Because my biggest fear is
如果我告诉你我的痛苦
if I tell you my pain...
你会说 你活该
you'll say, "You deserved it."
你真恶心
"You're disgusting."
你糟透了
"You're horrible."
我看到这些上课外辅♥导♥的
And I'm seeing these blond blue-eyed boys
金发碧眼的男孩 我想
on after-school specials, and I'm like...
我得找一个替身
I gotta find another body.
所以我开始给自杀热♥线♥打电♥话♥
So I start calling suicide hotlines...
然后我遇到了JT
and I meet JT.
我和其他人一样惊讶
I was as surprised as everyone else...
JT所写的
what JT wrote.
然后我很伤心
Then I was sad...
因为我不能给予JT
'cause I couldn't give JT
他想要的身体
the body he wanted...
他应得的躯体
the body he deserved.
然后他在萨凡纳身上发现了这一点
And he found that in Savannah.
-但是 其实 这就是 -哦 我懂
- Um, but to be back is... - Oh, I know.
-换了一下 -太不可思议了
- Meta. - It's incredible.
-你叫什么名字 -米凯拉
- What's your name? - Mikayla.
-米凯拉 我的荣幸 -谢谢
- Mikayla. Pleasure. - Thank you.
-真的 -嘿
- Really. - Hey.
宝贝 过来
Babyhead, get in here.
过了很长一段时间了
It's been a long time.
我很庆幸我来了
I'm... I'm really glad that I came.
你来了我真的很高兴
I'm really glad you did too.
-你叫什么名字 -嗯 DJ
- What's your name? - Uh, D.J.
DJ 谢谢你的到来 -非常感谢您
- D.J., thanks for coming. - Thank you so much.
-杰夫怎么样了 -他很好
- How's Geoff? - He's good.
你知道 做他自己 搞音乐
You know, he's being Geoff. Making music.
我也喜欢你刚刚说的
I like what you said earlier too.
谢谢你喜欢我的书
Thank you for connecting to "Sarah" like that.
-它真的很不错 -哦
- It's really beautiful. - Oh!
我们能不能给你们拍张照片
C... can we just get a picture of you guys?
-可以 -没问题 当然可以
- Sure. Um, yeah. - Yeah, sure.
哇
Wow.
看镜头
Here we are.
好吧 我也是来告别的
Well, I also came to say goodbye.
我要搬到纽约去了 我很兴奋
Um, I'm gonna move to New York. I'm excited.
哇 我觉得 这对你来说是很好的发展
Wow, I guess. That's a big one for you.
-你叫什么名字 -嗯 托马斯
- What's your name? - Uh, Thomas.
恭喜你
Congratulations.
你知道 也许我会在世界各地见到你
And you know, maybe I'll see you out in the world.
我只是在做我想做的
We're playin' in the fields of the Lord.
-你叫什么名字 -艾利克斯
- What's your name? - Alex.
嘿 小萨
Hey S... Sav.
我听说你在尝试写作
I heard you were, uh, writing.
是的
Yeah.
只要记住 你扮演过作家
Just remember, just 'cause you played a writer
这并不意味着你可以成为作家
doesn't mean you are one.
祝你好运
Good luck.
谢谢
Thank you.
-你叫什么名字 -伊娃
- What's your name? - Eva.
伊娃
Eva...