我的妈妈，简（2025）

那时我刚起步
I was in the beginning of my career
在亚特兰大演了一场
and I did a show in Atlanta,
那天晚上，我决定出去走走
and this particular night, I decided to go for a walk.
突然我看到俱乐部门口一阵骚动
And all of a sudden I see a commotion in front of the club.
我进了俱乐部
And I enter the club.
女服务员朝我过来
The waitress came running to me.
她说：“Jayne Mansfield来了”
She says, "Jayne Mansfield is here."
我走向Jayne
And I approached Jayne,
然后……
and...
Jayne看着我，用意大利语说
Jayne looked at me and she spoke Italian,
她说： “Buona sera.”
you know, she says, "Buona sera."
然后她说：“来看看我的演出。”
Then she says, "Come and see my show."
于是我就去了
So I went,
演出结束时
and when the show finished,
她说：“我们去你的车里”
she says, "We go in your car."
我说：“喔哦”
I said, "Whoa-ah."
哇！
Whee!
这一切发生的时候，我爸爸在哪里？
Where was my dad during all of this?
当时有一些家庭矛盾……
There was some family friction there...
所以他们彼此不说话
so they were not talking to each other.
所以她是分居了吗？
So she was separated?
或者我爸当时是个什么情况？我就是想
Or what was the deal with my dad? Just so I can--
他们分开了，他们在闹矛盾
They were separate--,They were having trouble.
可你们还出现在公共场合的话
But if you're going in public places together.
的确如此
Very much so.
我们到哪儿都一起
We went every place together.
后来我们开始一起演出
Then we start performing together.
接着她开始把我介绍给孩子们
Then I start being introduced to the kids.
她去Juárez办离婚我也一起去了
And I went to Juárez for her divorce.
我陪在她身边
I was there with her.
之后我们去德国拍电影
After that, we went to make a movie in Germany.
然后我们租了辆车
And then we rented a car,
在欧洲各地自驾游
and we drove all over Europe.
这些漂亮的照片是哪里拍的？
Where are these beautiful photos?
这是在阿尔卑斯山
This is in the Alps.
跟我说说这张
Tell me about this.
这是我们刚意大利时拍的
This is as we entered Italy.
你什么时候知道她怀孕了？
When did you find out that she was pregnant?
在德国
Germany.
哦……
Oh...
哇，我不知道，这真是……
Wow. I didn't know that. That's...
哇，那真是......
哦，是的，是的，
- Wow. That's... - Oh yes. Oh yes.
“父亲节，1963年
"Father's Day, 1963.
致Nelson
To Nelson.
这特别的一天，对我们俩而言更加特别
This special day is even more special to each of us.
我们永恒之爱的种子正在成长
The seed of our eternal love grows
如同幼苗，总有一天会长成参天橡树
as the sapling that one day must be a strong oak.
Te amo al di la， Jayne”
Te amo al di la, Jayne."
“Al di la” 意思是……
"Al di la" means...
“远在彼岸”，你懂吧？
"far beyod," you know?
“亲爱的妈妈
"Dearest Mama,
我正经历也许是我一生中最艰难的时刻
I am going through perhaps the most trying time of my life now,
在Mickey和Nelson之间举棋不定
indecision regarding,Mickey and Nelson.
我拥有两个男人的爱
I have the love of two men,
每一个都爱得很深
a very deep love from each of them.
我希望上帝尽快为我指引方向
I hope God shows me the way soon,
因为我最近真的很消沉”
because I have really been depressed of late."
旅程快结束时
So at the end of the trip,
我们去了圣彼得大教堂
we went to the St. Peter cathedral.
她说：“我们来许些誓言吧。”
And she says, "Let's make some vows."
那一刻很美
It was beautiful.
然后她看着我，对我说：“Nelson
And then she look at me and she says, "Nelson,
假如我们结婚了
suppose if we get married
而我怀了别的男人的孩子……
and I get pregnant by another man...
你还会接纳我吗？”
would you take me back?"
我简直不敢相信，我说：“你怎么敢问我
I couldn't believe it. I say, "How dare you to ask me
这么……的问题？”
such a... question?"
你明白吗？
You understand?
就是……
It just...
我被吓到了
It... it was a crash.
而我……这件事，我承受不了
And I... That, I couldn't take it.
实在太沉重了
It was too much.
我说：“Jayne，明天
I said, "Jayne, tomorrow,
你回美国，我留下
you go back to America, I stay,
然后你我将再也不会见面”
and then you and I will never see each other again."
你当时知道她怀了你的孩子吗？
You knew that she was pregnant with your child?
是的
Yes.
Mariska，这件事我并不否认
Mariska, I am not denying it.
而且我得说，这是我一生中最大的羞耻
And I say this was the biggest shame in my life.
我错了
I was wrong.
你之后还有再跟她说过话吗？
Did you ever talk to her again?
令我心痛的是我当时那样的态度
It eats me up that I assumed that position
再也不和她说话
of never talking to her
因为有很多人为此付出了代价
because a lot of people paid the price
为我们这段恋情
for this love affair we had.
Jayne和Mickey，欢迎来到加利福尼亚
ayne and Mickey, welcome to California.
回到家感觉如何？
How does it feel to be home?
太棒了，真的太棒了
It's just great. It really is.
我自己从去年三月以来都没回过家
I haven't been home myself since last March.
而现在我们回到这儿是为了Mickey
And now we're back here for Mickey
继续他的电视工作
to continue on his television work
还有迎接一个孩子的到来
and to have a baby.
没错
That's right.
我无法想象你父亲的感受
I can't imagine what your father felt.
但我对他心怀感激
But I am grateful to him.
你为什么从来没有在我出生后主动联♥系♥过我？
Why didn't you ever reach out after I was born?
当你母亲去世时
When your mother died,
你的姥姥Vera希望我联♥系♥他们
your grandmother Vera wanted me to rock the boat
把你认回来之类的
and claim you or something.
但那时，你所认识的父亲就是Mickey
But by that time, Mickey was the father you knew.
而你的兄弟姐妹，就是你的兄弟姐妹
And your siblings, they were your siblings.
我那样做能
What would I be accomplishing
对你有什么好处呢？
that would be beneficial to you?
随着岁月流逝
And as the years went by,
我曾有机会和Mickey Hargitay谈过一次
I had a chance to talk to Mickey Hargitay one time.
他对我说
And he said to me,
“Nelson
"Nelson,
没人有资格告诉我
nobody has to tell me
谁是我孩子的父亲”
who's the father of my child."
而我对他说
And I said to him,
“我绝不会以任何方式让你难堪
"I will not embarrass you in any way.
绝不会”
Never."
Jayne Mansfield有三个孩子
Jayne Mansfield had three children
生父是她的第二任丈夫，Mickey Hargitay
by her second husband, Mickey Hargitay.
Miklós，我希望我把这些名字读对了
Miklós, and I hope I'm saying these names properly,
Zoltan，还有Mariska Hargitay
Zoltan, and Mariska Hargitay
都由他们的父亲抚养，在
were all raised by their father and...
他们母亲去世之后
after their mother died.
很高兴认识你
早上好
- Nice to meet you. - Good morning.
很高兴认识你
见到你真高兴
- Nice to meet you. - Good to see you.
早上好，David，很高兴见到你。
Good morning, David. Nice to see you.
谢谢
Thank you.
你♥爸♥爸跟你谈过多少关于你妈妈的事？
How much has your dad told you about your mom?
他都跟你说过些什么？
What kind of things has he told you?
嗯，就是在聊天时会提到
Well, I mean, it just kind of comes up in conversation
然后我们无话不说
and we talk about everything,
我想，就是每当提起的时候就会聊
I mean, I think, just whenever it comes up.
在我发现之前
Before I found out,
你和爸爸有没有谈过Nelson？