杀人自白（2018）

Well I mean, I guess we could.
我不知道 我只是觉得应该这样
I don't know, I just I feel like it needs to be
有同情心的 爽快的
sympathetic or chipper or something
让人们愿意捐款
for people to want to donate.
你知道 这并不完全正确
You know, that's not entirely true.
我的意思是 它很重要 是局部的 它有所有这些
I mean, it is important, it's topical, it's got all that,
- 而且是富有同情心的 - 不 是我有同情心
- and it is sympathetic. - No, I can be sympathetic.
它可以是富有同情心的
It can be sympathetic.
我是说 我们自己到底有多混♥蛋♥
I mean, how far up our own assholes did we have to be
才会把整个项目的这部分
to just completely have to gloss over
完全给掩饰过去呢?
this entire section of the project?
等等 这是最后一杯啤酒吗?
Wait, is that the last beer?
2016年7月10日凌晨1:20 来自埃罗尔的语♥音♥消息
嘿 诺埃尔
Hey Noel,
它是永恒的埃罗尔
it's the ever-persistent Errol.
我知道 我留下了一些语♥音♥消息
I know, I've left a few of these,
但是我们想念你
but we miss you.
听着 我们甚至不需要讨论恢复拍摄
Listen, we don't even have to talk about resuming shooting
或者是整个项目
or the project at all.
我们只想听到你一切安好
We just want to hear that you're alright,
听说你最近要有大事发生了
hear that things are coming along for you.
我们很快就要开始编辑过程了
We're going to start the editing process soon.
边做边编辑 就是这样
Edit as you go, so that'll be
很困惑又很兴奋
rich for confusion and excitement
还有漫漫长夜
and long slumberless nights.
无论如何 给你两周时间
Anyway, two weeks is a while.
当你感觉可以的时候喊我一声 好吗?
Give me a shout when you're feeling up to it, okay?
谢谢你 朋友
Thanks, buddy.
这段视频拍摄后不久 我们就收到了一封来自诺埃尔的电子邮件
这是16天内他的第一次通信 同时还发来一段视频
这是怎么发生的呢?
And how did that come about?
你是说过渡?
The transitions, you mean?
是的 整个过程是怎样的 有多快?
Yes, what was the process generally, and how speedily?
立竿见影
Immediate.
葬礼之后我们回到家
In light of the funeral, after that when we came home,
一切都不同了
everything was different.
一切都改变了
Everything changed.
我父亲开始酗酒
My father, he started drinking heavily,
我母亲也是如此
as did my mother but with her,
大量服药
it was mostly with pills.
但那晚之后 我失去了
But I lost my parents after that night
曾经非常了解的父母
in respect of how I've always knew them.
伊森的死对你有什么影响?
What affect did Ethan's death have on you?
我的意思是他死后
And again, I mean immediately after his passing.
我已经长大了 能够理解这一切的重量
I was old enough to comprehend the weight of it all.
但还是太年轻了 不能恰当地表达悲伤
But still, too young to be able to grieve properly.
我非常难过 甚至是沮丧
I was terribly sad, depressed even.
但我父母对我很疏远
But with my parents being distant
有时还心怀怨恨
and resentful at times,
我无处倾诉
I didn't really have an outlet for any of it.
他们对你有什么怨恨?
How were they resentful towards you?
我想是保持距离吧
By being distant, I guess.
但至少 我记忆中是这样
But at least, that's how I remembered it.
你觉得他们把他的死和那场事故
Do you feel they blamed you for his death
归咎于你吗？
and the accident itself?
我不知道
I don't know.
我想他们憎恨我还活着这个事实
I think they resented the fact that I was still alive.
你觉得他们喜欢伊森胜过你吗?
Do you think they've favored Ethan over you?
只有在他走后时这样吧
Only afterwards, after he was gone.
我想如果角色互换
I think if the roles were reversed
他肯定也会经历类似的创伤
that he would of have experienced a similar trauma.
你的父母现在在哪里?
Where are your parents now?
死了
Dead.
我可怜的母亲死于肾衰竭
My poor mother, she died of kidney failure,
而我的父亲 他自然死亡
and my father, he died of life.
我离开家的时候是12岁
I was 12 when I left home.
你这么小 去了哪里?
Where did you go at such a young age?
周围的地方
Around.
你什么时候
When the violent urges
想把我们的讨论集中在暴♥力♥冲动上?
you want to focus our session on begin?
大约是伊森去世的时候?
Around the time of Ethan's passing?
我们埋葬他的那晚
The night we buried him,
我在卧室墙上钻了个洞
I put a hole through my bedroom wall.
对于一个九岁的男孩来说 这已经很厉害了
That's pretty strong for a nine-year-old boy.
我用了一把斧头
I used an ax.
你怎么拿到斧头的？
How did you have access to that?
车♥库♥门没锁
Garage door was unlocked.
我很抱歉谈到这里
I'm sorry to jump around,
但我们的时间越来越有限
but our time is growing increasing limited
我想确认一下…
and I want to make sure...
对不起 让我把手♥机♥关掉
I'm sorry, let me turn this off.
我想确认一下我们是否已经达成一致
I want to make sure that we've arrived at this.
你想说的重大转折
What was the big turn of events
是什么？
that you wanted to speak about?
好吧 事实证明如此
Well, it turns out that.
米凯拉对加布里埃尔的介绍
Mikayla's introduction of Gabriella
很积极上进
was solely self-motivated.
所以呢?
How so?
她想让我带着她
She wants me to take her,
给我完全监护权
to have full custody.
她给你理由了吗?
Did she give you a reason?
大概就是说
The abridged version is that
她的男朋友几周前搬到西部工作去了
her boyfriend moved out west for work a few weeks ago,
现在她想在一个月后去找他
and she now wants to join him in a month's time.
她想重新开始
She wants to start fresh
重新安家 正如她所说的
and relocate, as she puts it.
为什么不带加布里埃尔一起去呢?
Why not take Gabriella with her?
她有很多理由
She had many reasons.
最重要的一点是
Central one being
她不想让加布里埃尔离开这里
that she doesn't want to uproot Gabriella
因为她现在在学校表现很好
now that she's doing so well in school
也交了很多朋友
and making friends.
米凯拉小时候经常搬家
See, Mikayla, she moved around a lot in her youth,
她知道这样做的危害
and she understands the detrimental impact of it.
你还有别的怀疑吗?
You have other suspicions?
我想她是真的相信
I think she truly believes
加布里埃尔和我一起可以过上更好的生活
that Gabriella could have a better life with me.
不是开玩笑 我从她的声音里听出来的
No kidding, I hear it in her voice,
我从从她说话的方式中感受到了
I feel it in her words, the way she said it.
还有 虽然她提到她的男朋友
Also, she mentioned that although her boyfriend
是一个好人
is a good man,
但他有一些令人讨厌的习惯
he has some unsavory habits
她不想让加布里埃尔学坏
she doesn't want to expose Gabriella to them.
你觉得就这些吗?
Do you think that's the lot of it?
可能不是
Probably not.
但就像我说的 为了更好的生活
But like I said, a better life.
你是怎么想的？
How does that make you feel,
是否有可能单独监护加布里拉?
the possibility of having sole custody of Gabriella?
这比我想象的还要兴奋
More elated than I could ever imagine.
所以你要这么做?
So you're doing it?
是的
Yes.
哇 我真为你高兴
Wow, I'm very happy for you,
很抱歉 我们的时间到了
and I'm sorry, but our time is up.
是的 可能吧
Yeah, it might be.
你♥他♥妈♥怎么能不小心说漏了嘴?
How the fuck could you let that slip?
我已经向你道歉了 好吗?
I've already apologized to you about it, okay?
但我真的想要一个答案 而不仅仅是一个道歉
But I really want an answer, not just an apology.
又不是口误
It's not like it was a slip of the tongue,
它是一封电子邮件
it was in an email.
我是说 耶稣基♥督♥ 埃利斯
I mean, Jesus Christ, Ellis,
- 你站在哪一边啊？ - 听着 别用希望我感恩戴德的
- who's team are you on? - Look, don't talk to me
语气跟我说话
like I'm beholden to you.