麻烦中的女人（2009）

潜入地下 为自己的信仰而奋斗
You know, going underground and fighting for my beliefs.
他们根本就没有理会我
They didn't give a rat's ass about me.
教训就是思想的折磨 对不对
There's a moral, and it's gonna be a mind-fuck, isn't it?
真正的教训是
The moral is that
我当从阿姆斯特丹回来
By the time I got back from Amsterdam
认我的女儿时
To reclaim my daughter,
实际上 她已经
She had, for all intents and purposes,
成了我妹妹的女儿
Become my sister's daughter.
我要么是不够强壮
And I was either not strong enough
要么不够软弱把她要回来
Or not weak enough to take her back.
她知道吗
Does she even know?
她知道我和她妈妈经常吵架
What she knows is that her mom and I fight a lot.
她们都在心理治疗
They're both in therapy now.
我曾去过一次
I went to therapy once.
对我作用不大
It didn't do much for me.
没作用
No?
简直是胡说八道
It was just some creep getting off
把我比喻成鞋底下的狗屎
Comparing me to dog shit stuck to the bottom of a shoe.
他说的吗
He said that?
他说 他在用比喻
He worked in metaphors, he said,
但他所在乎的
But the only thing he seemed to care about
是我喜不喜欢肛♥交♥
Was whether I enjoyed anal sex.
为什么男的都喜欢肛♥交♥
What is it with guys and anal sex anyway?
他们都是同性恋吗
Are they all fags?
听起来 你的医师不怎么样
It sure doesn't sound like you went to the right therapist.
我去找他就是想和他说说话
The only reason I went to him was to talk to him
想知道如何与像他那样的男人交往
About how to deal with guys just like him.
相反他和我的后背说了一小时
Instead, he spent the whole hour talking to my rack
他告诉我所有男人
And informed me the reason every guy I meet
都想和我做♥爱♥ 是因为我的工作
Wants to bang me is 'cause of my job.
你在哪工作
Where do you work?
我是演员
I'm an actress.
是吗
Yeah?
电影 还是电视
Movies? Television?
色情
Porn.
我能不能问一下 你这么...
Can I ask you, like, how you...
我是说 漂亮
I mean, you're so pretty.
你可以做正当职业
You could be in, like, normal things.
我不是说色情电影不正当
I mean, not that porn isn't normal.
只是很奇怪
It's just, you know, I'm just curious, like,
你怎么开始干这一行的
How you got started in that.
我第一次来到这时 我有个舍友叫莱莉
When I first moved out here, I had this roommate, Riley,
她是个漂亮的来自博尔德的另类女孩
This beautiful hippie girl from Boulder.
我很喜欢她
I loved her to death.
我们欠了很多租金
We were way behind on our rent,
她带着我去参加所谓的试镜
And she made me come with her to this so-called audition
作为精神支撑 没有卖♥♥关子
As moral support, no pun intended,
就那么开始了
And... that was that.
你不害怕吗
Weren't you scared?
天啊 我都吓死了
Holy fuck. I was shitting bricks.
我第一张录像
My first video,
是和传奇人物吉米·海恩斯一起拍
I did a scene with the legendary Jimmy Haynes.
只拍他小♥弟♥弟♥ 但愿那人没累死
All penis, that man, may he rest in peace.
后来第二张 镜头就转了
But the second those cameras started rolling,
我知道该怎么做
I knew exactly what to do.
也许是遗传
Maybe it's genetic.
我曾祖母是吉普赛吞剑高手
My great-grandmother was a Gypsy sword-swallower,
但我发现自己
But I discovered I have a very real talent
在摄像机前帮人口♥交♥还蛮有天赋的
For sucking cock on camera.
之后 就过了五年
Next thing you know, 5 years pass
眨眼间就过去了
Without even blinking.
毒品可能起作用了
The coke might have helped with that,
在那段漫长的岁月
The non-blinking part.
后来一天 莱莉把自己锁在一个旅馆房♥间里
And then one day, Riley locks herself in a motel room
开枪自杀了
And blows her brains out.
天啊
Oh, my God.
后来我得知是她继父
I found out later her stepfather
要挟她 就是那个混♥蛋♥
Was blackmailing her, the same prick
从10岁的时候开始虐待她
Who had abused her since she was 10.
有什么新奇的
What else is new?
我童年时也差不多
My childhood wasn't all that different.
真为你难过
I'm so sorry.
有句话说什么来着
Hey, what's that saying,
一个人的垃圾可能是另一个人的财宝
"one man's trash is another man's treasure"?
有人把我的童年变成了
Someone else might have turned my childhood
伤心的小说
Into a heartbreaking novel.
不是我
Not me.
现在还没有
Not yet anyway.
那你很有名
So are you famous?
是的
Yeah.
真的很有名?
Really famous?
其实 还行
Well...okay.
泰拉·杜拉特和克里斯蒂·克拉麦克斯
Tyra Doright and Christy Climax are probably
是现在网上最流行的充气性玩偶
The most popular girls right now in terms of web traffic.
但语♥音♥版泰拉玩偶价格太高 225美元
But the Tyra talking love doll is seriously overpriced at $225,
而且胳膊也不会全方位移♥动♥
And the arms don't even move in all directions,
然而全自动 正位艾丽卡·蕾科斯充气性玩偶
Whereas the anatomically correct Elektra Luxx vagina deluxe
只卖♥♥89元 还有3个颜色
Retails for 89 bucks and comes in 3 different colors.
是市面上销量第一的名人版玩偶
It is the number one selling celebrity vagina on the market.
等等
Hold on.
人们买♥♥你的阴♥道♥的仿制品
Strangers purchase a replica of your vagina?
它能振动 还能喷流
It vibrates, and it squirts.
人生真怪异
Life is so fucking weird.
我有时都不知道该想些什么
I don't even know what to think sometimes.
这里是洛杉矶消防队
This is the Los Angeles fire department.
里面有人吗
Anybody still in here?
我们在电梯里
We're in the elevator!
你能听见我们吗
Hey! can you hear us?
能 等一下 马上救你们出来
Yeah, hold on. I'll get you right out.
你们还好吗
Hey, you guys okay?
我实际上又给她了一杯浓咖啡
I actually brought her another espresso
因为当我说话的时候
Because I did not want her to say that she was asleep
不想听她说 她累了
When I talked to her.
我想不起来我生命中有哪一刻
I can't think of any moment in my life
是值得留恋的
That I'd like to relive.
我觉得自己对任何事都没有留恋
I find myself not really being nostalgic about anything.
但那是不可能的
But that can't be, can it?
我只想告诉她不要像个
I just want to tell her to just quit caterwauling around
野猫那样四处叫♥春♥ 动作快点
Like a goddamned puma and get her ass in gear.
妈妈 你做事有点效率行不行
Mom, just get your act together.
你很性感
You're hot.
我很想揍你 我正在考虑这个
I'd bang you. I think about it
但我没有告诉你 为什么
But I don't tell you. Why?
这就像我脑中同时有两个想法
It's like a seesaw in my head.
因为在骨子里 我知道那种感觉
Because in my bones, I know the feeling.
我的意思是 我觉得我知道
I mean, I think I know.
我看见盘子上有两块幸运饼干
And I see that on the tray are 2 little fortune cookies,
我把它掰开 观察裂缝
And I start to crack it open, and I see the slip.
但是在这种情况下 我看不到
But I--at this point, I can't read it
因为我的眼睛肿得睁不开
Because my eyes are so fricking swollen.
我把灯光调暗
I turn the lights down low.
制♥造♥点气氛
Create a little atmosphere.
所以我把服务生叫过来
So I bring the waiter over.
我说
I said, "can you please--
"你可以读这个给我听吗
"can you please just read this to me?
这是我的命运
It's my fortune."
是的 不是 是的 不是
Yes, no, yes, no, yes, no.
我对一些东西有留恋
I have nostalgia for something.
只是这些还没有出现
It just hasn't happened yet.
但是它会出现的 因为如果不出现
But it's gonna happen, because if it doesn't,