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- What's this? - It's 10 grand.
-比利 -我以为
- Billy... - It's, I-I thought--
-你怎么能如此 -小点声
- How can you be so... - Shh...
别他妈让我小声
Don't fucking shush me.
听着 我们是个团队 好吗
Look, we're a team, all right?
这个团队并不平等 我包揽所有工作
We're not an equal team. I do all the work,
-你包揽所有功劳 但我们是个团队 -没错
- you get all the praise, but we are a team. - Exactly.
摊上这堆烂事的唯一好处是让我意识到
The only good thing about this mess is that it made me realize
我对我们所做的一切痛恨至极
I hate what we did together with all my heart.
你这么才华横溢 你会找到另一份工作的
You're brilliant. You'll get another job.
但问题就在这里 比利 我
Yeah, but that's just it, Billy. I...
我再也找不到另一份工作了
I won't get another job
因为你始终只让我做你的私人助理
because all you ever made me was your fucking PA.
-你会没事的 -我不会没事的
- You'll be fine-- - I won't be fucking fine!
即使没有名号♥ 我也是你的首席运营官
I'm your COO in all but name.
我和你白手起家创立这家公♥司♥
I built this company from nothing with you,
我甚至还没有制定任何计划
and I haven't even made any plans
因为所需做出一切牺牲
because of all the dedication that was required.
我再也没有约过会 也没有组建家庭
I haven't met anyone. I haven't started a family.
严格来说 我换来了一场空
Officially, I'm trained in nothing,
所以如果我想要钱 比利 我可得趁你
so if I wanted cash, Billy, I'd want a hell of a lot more
忘记我之前 再要更多的钱
than this before I let you forget about me.
只是说说而已
Just saying.
我要走了
I'm leaving now.
你相信我吗
Do you trust me?
我觉得...
I think...
我应该得到一个解释
I deserve an explanation.
暂禁终于结束了
The moratorium's finally over.
去他妈的暂禁
Fuck the moratorium.
好吧
Okay.
你想跟我在这里吗
Do you wanna be here with me,
还是说你有别的事
or is this about something else?
-你有丈夫 -我对你完全坦诚
- You have a husband. - I've been totally honest with you.
真的有完全坦诚的人吗
Is anyone totally honest?
你在利用我吗 比利
Are you using me, Billy?
不 我没有利用你
N... No, I'm not using you.
随便问
Ask me anything.
我都会说实话
I'll tell you the truth.
你有麻烦了吗
Are you in trouble?
是的
Yeah.
-你是银行抢劫犯吗 -那是我的钱
- Are you a bank robber? - It's my money.
很多人不会带着一大包自己的钱到处跑
Most people don't carry around a giant bag of their own money.
我知道 但我犯了一个大错 所以
I know. But I made a huge mistake, so...
这笔钱
I have this money
是因为我搞砸了我的工作
because I fucked up in my job.
别人对我很生气
People are very mad at me,
于是我带上了我的钱 因为我回不去了
and so I'm taking my money because I can't ever go back.
所有人都知道我满口胡言...
Everyone knows I'm full of shit...
-我不知道该怎么办 -怎么了
- ...and I don't know what to do. - What happened?
三天前 我在主持我接过的最大的节目
Three days ago, I'm at my biggest ever event.
预售满座 有几百个人...
Pre-sold, full capacity, hundreds of people with...
还有更多预售给上千人的节目
more shows pre-sold to thousands more.
在我的节目开头
And as part of my show, right in the beginning,
我会从观众里选一个人
I pull someone up from the crowd
他们会告诉我他们的烦恼
and they tell me their problem.
我会随便说几句 他们会很开心
I give them a few words, and they're happy.
观众很开心 这就是一个完美的开头
The crowd's happy, and we're off to a great start.
于是我拉上来了一个人
So, I pull someone up.
一个很和善的女人
Nice woman,
笑容很甜 她叫杰姬
lovely smile. Jackie.
杰姬说她深爱的丈夫
And Jackie says that her beloved husband,
布拉德 几周前去世了
Brad, died a few weeks ago.
于是我便开始安慰她 但事情并不是那样
So, I go into condolence mode, but no.
她不想要我的安慰 因为据她所说
She doesn't want that because the reason
布拉德的死
Brad died, she says,
是因为他自杀了
is because he killed himself
由于他短暂断药后
as a result of a mental breakdown
导致了精神崩溃
shortly after coming off his meds.
杰姬说 布拉德断药
And the reason Brad came off his meds,
是因为我让他断药的
according to Jackie, is because I told him to.
-你没有让他断药吗 -严格来说没有
- You didn't say that? - Not literally, no.
-严格来说没有 -于是我开始冒汗
- Not literally? - And so, I started to sweat.
我听到一个声音
And I heard this voice--
那是我的声音 但不是我发出来的
It was my voice, but it was, like, disembodied,
似乎是别人的声音 你明白吗
like it was somebody else's voice, you know?
我想那个声音说
And I think it said,
"你知道吗 杰姬
"Do you know what, Jackie?
你说得没错
"You're right.
我凭什么对你说教呢
"Who am I to be preaching at you like this?
我是个37岁的男人
"I'm a 37-year-old man
没有生活 没有女友
"Without a life or a girlfriend
连个家都没有 我就是一个骗子
"Or even a proper home. I'm a fuckin' fraud,
我的行为的确可以算是
"And I am as guilty of your husband's death
害死了你丈夫"
as if I had killed him myself."
然后我让他们全都回家
And then I told them all to go home.
这是...
And this was...
这是持续三天的活动的头10分钟
10 minutes into a three-day event,
顺便说下
by the way,
所以那效果特别好
so that went down well.
现在还有我的网络爆红梗
And now, there are memes of me,
我觉得我变成了那种...
and I think I'm just becoming like a bit of a--
-笑柄 -替罪羊
- A laughingstock. - ...scapegoat.
嗯
Yeah.
不 我觉得笑柄更加贴切
No, I guess laughingstock's about right.
如果你想要回家 我也理解
If you want to go home, I'll understand.
但是我要老实告诉你一件事
But I'll tell you one thing, absolutely honestly.
我真的不希望你走
I really don't want you to.
比利
Oh, Billy.
比利啊
Oh, Billy.