不好（2022）

Smart move, turning that fear into clickbait.
可是 天啊 我可能太习惯被人巧取豪夺了
But, God, I guess I am just so used to being stolen from,
当我在你的主张中读到我自己的话 我还帮你转发了
that when I read my words in your voice, I reposted 'em.
还在你吹嘘炫耀时为你鼓掌喝彩
And applauded as you boasted.
我为你提供了平台 让你扶摇直上
Gave you a platform that floated you right up to the top.
你就从未想过停止吗
And you never thought to stop?
当你低头看着脚下 那些被你当做踏板的尸体
When you looked down at the bodies that you used as props,
当你直视着我的眼睛 你眼中只有又一个能用来剽窃的主张吗
when you looked into my eyes, you just saw another voice to co-opt?
作为一个声称自己不太好的人 你看起来实在好得很
You know, for someone who's not okay, you seem okay with quite a lot, actually.
虽然我被狠狠偷袭了 但我怎么丝毫不意外呢
And while I was blindsided, why am I not surprised?
为何你那种故事时不时就会成为爆款
Why is a story like yours something we read every other night?
为何你那种人 就能被流媒体平台拍成电影
Why do people like you get movies on Netflix and Hulu,
而我这种人就只会被教育 好好坐着 等待改变
and people like me get told to sit tight and wait for change?
你根本不明白那是什么感觉 你别想夺走麦克风
No, you don't know what that's like! You can't take the mic!
This is my time slot. One more minute, right?
这是属于我的时段 再多一分钟 好吗
我的一切都被抢走了
I have had everything stolen from me.
他们被夺走了呼吸
Their breath, stolen.
我还在苟延残喘 不知道我身边的人会不会拿着…
My breath, perpetually holding, wondering if someone near me might be holding...
抱歉
I'm sorry.
是我的创伤发作了吗
Is my trauma showing?
但我并没打算放慢或停下脚步
Because I don't plan on slowing or sitting down.
轮到我夺回你从我口中抢走的话了
This is my time to take back the words that you stole from my mouth.
你根本没见过任何事物被毁灭 除了你自己
You have never seen anything destroyed except yourself!
这是你自作自受
And that is of your own doing.
所以 我当然不好
So hell no. I am not okay.
我每天都很思念姐姐
I think about her every single day.
你知道吗 报纸报道她的时候
You know when the newspapers wrote about my sister,
连她的名字都拼错了
they misspelled her name?
现在你觉得你能代替她吗
And now you think her place is something you can claim?
她的尸体被埋在地下 你觉得你也一样吗
Her body is in the ground, and you think you're the same?
希望你明白 你这么做 只让我更加有话可说
I hope you realize that by doing this, you've only given me more to say.
也许有一天我会原谅你
So maybe one day I'll forgive you…
但我们永远不会和好如初
But we will never be okay.
很棒
Yes!
好样的
Yes!
说得好
你做到了 非常棒
You did that. You did it.
非 我 所 愿
♪ Like a dog with his tail Between his legs ♪
♪ I sleep in the bed I know I've made ♪
♪ I knew things could get complicated ♪
♪ Oh-oh, I'm ashamed ♪
♪ I don't know her face Or where she came from ♪
♪ I don't even know her name ♪
♪ The mirror's clean, I scream again ♪
♪ Whoa-oh, oh, I'm ashamed ♪
♪ So-whoa-whoa-whoa ♪
♪ I run ♪
♪ Can't escape the fate of judgment day ♪
♪ For the things I've done ♪
♪ This is a declaration of a fuck up ♪
♪ A product of how I was raised ♪
♪ And I don't expect a single teardrop ♪
♪ Whoa, I am ashamed ♪
♪ This is a declaration of a fuck up ♪
♪ And in the end I don't know how to change ♪
♪ And I don't expect a single teardrop ♪
♪ Whoa, I am ashamed ♪
♪ Shot you words you don't deserve ♪
♪ Rolled through your town And massacred ♪
♪ I wish I died a hundred times ♪
♪ Whoa-oh, oh, I'm ashamed ♪
♪ So-whoa-whoa-whoa ♪
♪ I run ♪
♪ Can't escape the fate of judgment day ♪
♪ For the things I've done ♪
♪ This is a declaration of a fuck up ♪
♪ A product of how I was raised ♪
♪ And I don't expect a single teardrop ♪
♪ Whoa, I am ashamed ♪
♪ This is a declaration of a fuck up ♪
♪ And in the end I don't know how to change ♪
♪ And I don't expect a single teardrop ♪
♪ Whoa, I am ashamed ♪
♪ Oh, I am deranged ♪
♪ Oh, I am insane ♪
♪ Oh, I'm inhumane ♪
♪ Oh, I am ashamed ♪
♪ Oh, I am deranged ♪
♪ Oh, I am insane ♪
♪ Oh, I'm inhumane ♪
♪ Oh, I am ashamed ♪