我隐秘的世界 - 莎拉厂牌的故事（2014）

我边读边感叹
and thinking yeah right on!
说得太好了！
Then I wanted to
我想要
I wanted to put all the master tapes
把所有母带
in a big pile and burn them
都堆成一堆然后烧掉
I thought that would be the real kind of
好像那才真的是
pop up statement of destroying everything
摧毁一切的临时起意
but Matt's wiser council prevailed
还好Matt及时理智干预
I think Matt had a very good point that
他说得对
it wasn't very fair on the bands really
那样做对乐队不太公平
It was their songs and recordings
毕竟都是他们的心血
We'd always had the idea for
我们早就想好
last release being the
最后一张Sarah
There And Back Again Lane compilation
应该是《There And Back Again Lane》合集
And it was always going to have the
而封面一定是
Clifton Suspension Bridge on the front
克里夫顿吊桥
But we
但我们
we really wanted to make it
真的很想搞
an event and a party
一个活动 一场派对
And a sort of celebration of the label
算是庆祝厂牌
and sort of very definite end
画上句号♥
So we threw a party here
所以就有了布里斯托
on the Thekla in Bristol
Thekla的这场派对
I remember finishing work in the afternoon
记得那天下午完成工作
and just walking down to the Thekla
我走路去Thekla
and just seeing queues of people outside
看见有人在外面排队
There was like fans there from
队伍里有从世界各地
different parts of the world
赶来的乐迷
with like all these old moth eaten t-shirts
都穿着带破洞的
with kind of old singles on the front
印着旧单曲封面的旧T恤
That was the extraordinary thing
这很了不起
When we were selling tickets that
售票时
people were writing from Hong Kong
有人说是从香港
and the States and Australia
美国、澳大利亚写信来的
and we were sort of thinking
我们心想
Are these people really coming'?
他们真会来吗？
I think some didn't
有些大概不
they just wanted a ticket
他们只为买♥♥张门票
but some they genuinely did
但有些还真是
You know on the night people were saying
那晚就有人说
I'm so and so from Hong Kong
我是香港来的某某
and that is fantastic
那种感觉真的很棒
And they'd decked it out like a sort of
他们把场地装点得
really like a party with
很有派对气氛
balloons everywhere
到处是气球
and streamers and what
彩带和其他东西
I seem to remember
我似乎记得
a lot of drunkenness
那晚喝得很醉
I seem to remember some rather dodgy
我似乎记得
and un-indie like behaviour
厕所里发生了一些
going on in the toilets!
有点污有点不indie的事情
The party was incredible
难以置信的派对
You know all these bands that you'd
听了那么多年
been listening to all these years
的乐队都出现了
It's the culmination of all that time
是一个时代的高♥潮♥
So it was kind of like the Mecca
就像独♥立♥乐的麦加
it was the like the Diwali
就像Sarah的
of Sarah if you like
排灯节（印度“春节”）
Everyone was excited
每个人都很兴奋
The crowd was so appreciative
心里充满感激
but they knew it was gonna be the last time
也知道这是最后一次
that a collection of you know the bands they like
他们喜欢的乐队
were going to be there at the same time
同台演出
A lot of people saying
许多人问
What's going to happen?
接下来呢？
What's going to happen?
接下来呢？
Because like us they felt as though
他们同样觉得
they'd sort of lost their moorings a little bit
好像失去了依靠
They'd come to rely
他们总以为
Sarah always being there and the next
Sarah会一直存在
you know the next gig and the next record
一直会有下场演出
that was going to come out
下张唱片
I think it was probably the first time
这可能是我第一次
for me that I actually thought
真正觉得
that this is a moment actually to cherish
此刻应该去珍惜
and to think about and to remember
去思考 去记住
Because this isn't going to happen again
因为这再也不会发生了
We were still together at that point
当时我们还在一起
but sort of drifting apart I think and
但已经貌合神离了
And I suppose
我可以说
I was going to say we stayed together
我们是为了厂牌
for the sake of the label
所以还在一起
but that wouldn't be strictly true
但那不是真的
But I think that it was clear that we
有一点肯定
sort of had our own ideas of what
我们各自差不多都有
we wanted to do next and
未来的计划
and obviously once the label had ended
一旦厂牌结束
there was really nothing to really stop us
就没什么能阻止我们
going our separate ways
分道扬镳
and doing our own thing after that
做自己的事了
We split up as we both moved to London
都搬去伦敦后我们就分手了
There was never a falling out and you know
过程中没有一点争吵
I trust him to the ends of the earth
他永远是我最信赖的人
I think it was more about sort of
我们只是觉得
what else might be out there
外面的世界可能更精彩
I don't necessarily mean in terms of
不是说有更好的男友
boyfriends but just a kind of
而是
a different life
一段新的生活
I suppose it's almost like suddenly
那就好像是
I was in my late 20s and the world
我快30岁了 我一直生活在
was my oyster and I kind of felt the need
牡蛎壳里 我觉得
to go off and do my own thing
需要走出去做些自己的事
So I set up Shinkansen
我建了新厂牌Shinkansen
fairly soon after the end of Sarah
就在结束Sarah不久后
Including a couple of the old
聚集了一些
Sarah bands on the label
以前Sarah的乐队
After Sarah I ended up working for Vital
Sarah之后我开始在Vital工作
who were big indie distributors at that point
那是当时一家大型独♥立♥乐分销商
And working on bands you hadn't chosen
我开始为别人选择的乐队工作
I mean whilst I really like some of them
里面有一些我真的喜欢
was just so different from working on
但和以前很不同
the stuff you really believed in that
以前只有你最相信的乐队
I really couldn't think of another
我想不到还有什么
record label I wanted to go and work for
我想为之工作的厂牌
or something I wanted to do in the industry
或者在音乐行业里想做的事
And I mean I'm sure there are senior women
这一行里应该也有
in the music industry
职位很高的女性
but I couldn't see any of them
但我是没见过
The bosses I was seeing were all male
我能见到的高层都是男性
and I couldn't really see much
在这里我无法预见
of a future for for me in it
自己的未来
that I either wanted
要么就是不想要的
Or could really see a way
要么就是
of kind of getting to and
不知如何实现的
And I ended up looking back at the fact
我回过头发现
that I'd got a couple of Maths A Levels
我有几门数学高考成绩
and an Economics degree and
还有经济学学位
went off to train as a chartered accountant
就去学注册会计师了
Shinkansen went on for a few years
Shinkansen运营了几年
But by the end of Shinkansen
但在最后时期
the music industry had completely changed