余烬将息（2018）

我使恶魔都安息了 我迷失了方向 精神崩溃了
把我的心埋在你冰冷的子♥宫♥里
远离光明 进入地球沉默的音调 -燕子的岛羚
莉雅 你好了吗？
Lea, you almost ready?
是的 这就来
Yeah, I'm coming.
亲爱的 我们不想迟到
We don't wanna be late, honey.
我说这就来了
I said I'm coming.
好吧
Alright, come on.
你最近怎么样?
How have you been?
还行
Alright.
还行？
Just alright?
是啊 差不多
Yeah, I guess so.
差不多？
You guess so?
好的不能再好了
Everything's just fine and dandy.
就挺好的
Just peachy.
莉雅 你知道讽刺帮不到你
Lea, you know sarcasm doesn't help.
那你想我说说我父母离婚的事？
So you want me to talk about my parents' divorce?
当然 如果有用的话
Sure, if it helps.
还是说我自杀的想法
Or about my suicidal thoughts,
或者是我奶奶
or about the fact that my grandma thinks
认为我被魔鬼附身的事实?
that I'm possessed by the devil?
我是来倾听的
You know, I'm here to listen.
有时这就是我们需要的
Sometimes it's all we need.
你开的那些药呢?
Yeah, and what about the drugs that you pricks prescribed?
那些让大家安静闭嘴的药
Whatever keeps the masses docile.
我以前给你开过药吗?
Have I ever prescribed you any drugs before in the past?
没有 我相信你会开的
No, but I'm sure you will.
我们已经会诊多久了？
We've been meeting for how long now?
一个月？
A month?
是啊 差不多一个月
Yeah, that sounds about right.
你会做出诊断
So, you're gonna make a diagnosis
告诉我妈妈我可能想自杀
and tell my mom I might try to kill myself,
然后他们会给我灌满药
and then they're gonna pump me full of meds,
因为你们这些医生都是这样的
because that's what you do, and then
然后那些药会让我保持镇静
they're gonna keep me all nice and calm
直到我30岁 然后我就会发疯
until I'm 30, and then I'll blow my fucking brains out.
这就是药物的作用
Because that's exactly how these meds work.
你想想 这一切都是政♥府♥
You see, it's just the government
和那些大型制药公♥司♥搞的
and the big Pharma companies.
他们把手伸进对方的裤子里
They've got their hands down each other's pants.
他们互相爱抚
They're stroking each other off,
一直在撸那个小东西
all the while screwing the little guy.
你真的相信没有让癌症痊愈的方法吗?
You really don't think there's a cure for cancer?
我说那是胡扯
'Cause I say that's bullshit.
他们才不关心我
They don't care about me.
没有人会关心
Nobody does.
这些都是会循环的
You see, it all cycles back.
你都听明白了吗?
Did you get all that?
你是个聪明的姑娘 莉雅
You're a smart girl, Lea.
我知道
Yeah, I know.
我就是个疯子
I'm a fucking lunatic.
嗨 孩子
Hi, kiddo.
我们可以一起呆一晚
You know, I was thinking maybe we could have a night in,
看个电影什么的
maybe watch a movie or something.
当然
Sure.
看你了
It's your choice.
你有什么特别想看的吗?
Is there anything in particular you wanna watch?
我这几天不上班
You know, I'm off the next couple of days.
你想干什么咱们就干什么
We can do anything you want.
看你了
Your choice.
好的
Cool.
我知道现在对你来说很艰难
You know, I know it's hard for you right now.
孩子 我在努力让一切都好起来
You know, kiddo, I'm trying to make this alright.
我知道你觉得这都是我的错
I know you feel like this is all my fault,
我知道这是我的错 但我还是想努力弥补
and I know it is, but again, I'm trying to make it alright.
我在尽力了
I'm trying to do the best I can.
没关系
It's fine.
你口上这么说 但我知道有关系
You say it's fine, but I know it's not.
那 学校怎么样？
How's school, at least?
学校怎么样了？
How's school?
糟透了
Sucks.
这就是你想听的吗?
Is that what you wanted to hear?
不是特别想听这个 但是
Well, not particularly, but
至少你要和我说说话
at least you're gonna talk to me.
我也是从你这么大过来的
I was a teenager once.
我知道这个年纪的烦心事 我也懂青少年
I know how we can be, how teens can be.
我要你知道 你是可以说出自己的心声的
I need you to know that you can stand up for yourself.
我能照顾好自己
I can take care of myself.
我知道你可以 但我不是这个意思
I know you can, and that's not what I'm saying.
我只知道这很难
I just know that it can be hard,
孩子们也会很苛刻 但我要你知道
and kids can be harsh, and I need you to know
无论怎么样 我都会在你身边
that I am here for you no matter what.
我会待在你身边
I am here for you.
别这样
Please.
你经历过 那你应该更懂才对
You were here, so you know how it is,
你懂的 这不重要
and you know it doesn't matter.
这很重要
It does matter.
看着我
Look at me.
看着我 拜托
Look at me, please.
看着我
Look at me.
我只是想让你知道我在你身边 好吗
I just want you to know that I am here, 'Kay?
好吧
Yeah.
莉雅 别这样
Lea, please?
过来 你这个小贱♥人♥
Come here, you little bitch.
你在哪？
Where you at?
你在哪？
Where are you?
出来 出来
Come out, come out.
你怕什么？
What are you so afraid of?
你能相信那个小贱♥人♥
Can you believe that little bitch
想参加拉拉队吗？
tried out for the cheerleading squad?
真是个怪胎
What a freak.
她有妄想症吗？
Is she delusional?
她只是不想像她讨厌的妈那样
She just doesn't wanna end up like her horrible mother.
学校里没有人喜欢你
You know, nobody at school likes you.
你最后会像你妈一样
You're just gonna end up like your mother.
怎么了？
What's the matter?
你为什么害怕？
Why are you afraid?
莉雅 出来吧 你这个小怪胎
Lea, come out, you little freak.
抓住她
Get her.
噢 我们看起来像害怕的样子么 小婊砸
Aww, are we scared, little bitch?
怎么了？哈？
What's the matter? Huh?
怎么了？
What's the matter, huh?
你要再割自己几刀吗?
You gonna cut yourself some more?
好吧 好吧
Yeah, yeah.
我要是你就自杀了
You know, you should just kill yourself.
没有你 世界会更美好
The world would be a better place without you.
你应该为这世界做个好事 去死吧
You should just do the world a favor and die already.
没有你 世界会更美好
The world would be such a better place without you.
你能相信吗？
Can you believe this?
地上躺了个蠢婊♥子♥
Stupid bitch on the floor.
麦迪逊 你确定我们要走吗?
Madison, you sure we should just get outta here?
麦迪
Maddy!
哦 天哪
Oh my god.
别再惹我了 贱♥人♥
Don't fucking mess with me, whore.
你疯了吗?
Are you psychotic?
你有什么问题？
What is wrong with you?
-不然我杀了你 -把她放开
-Or I will fucking kill you. -Put her down.
我们走 麦迪
Let's get out of here, Maddy.
住脚 你会把我鞋子弄脏的
Stop, you're gonna get my shoes dirty.
停下
Stop.
你好没礼貌
You're so rude.
真是个坏小子